today
Man oh Man!!!!! It's been such a long day. Watching these six kids all night long is just making my headache worse. It is going to be a very long night. Man John has told me at 6:30ish that he would get online. It's now 7:45 and I would really love to talk to him, I think that he would make me feel alot better right now. But I guess that I just have to wait untill he gets online. no big deal I guess. Oh yea, and what gives Andrew the right to talk to me after everything that he has put me through. He makes me so mad. I hate him. I wish he would just leave me the hell alone. He just doesn't understand that I am happy, and I don't want anything to do with him. JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!! Anyway, I am just sitting here thinking. I don't know anymore. Last night, John and I were talking and for the third day in a row he made me cry. I wasn't crying because I was sad or upset but because I was happy. He loves me so much and I don't know what I would do with out him. After last night, and me feeling like I was dying, I made sure he knew how much that I love him, and that I would do everything in my power to keep what we ahve with each other, because if something were to happen to me, I would want him to know how much I love him and I want to be with him. I really want him to know how much I really do LOVE him. I would do anything in the world for him. He is the love of my life. I want him to know how much I really do love him. Shit just sitting here writing this, I have teard coming down my face. I hope that he knows how much I love him.
Jeriann
Jeriann