Stressed out.....
I'm sorry to talk about myself once again, but I am stressed the eff out. First of all.......I feel like I'm so behind in school because I missed one effin day cause of my effin heart. Like I planned it ya know.....hello what was I suppose to do, come to school and die?! No exactly. So I'm behind.....stressed out....failing tests....its just great.
Then I had a crappy day with people period. Argh. Everything everybody did ticked me off today. I think its that new heart medicine they have me on, makes me irritable. Like I say stuff to my friends, and everybody that I would have never said otherwise. Usually I'm all like quiet and just like let people talk and now I'm like shut the eff up your just stupid. I'm so irritable, and effin tired, and over people.
I'm stressed out about my party, because well, I just am. It's my party....and I'll be stressed out if I want too.....I feel like everythings gonna go wrong, at the last minute because thats what happens. I feel like nobodys gonna come, because I feel like I have no friends anymore. I don't wanna be seventeen really, I wanna just stay sixteen. Sixteen just sounds so much better. Doesn't it?! I think back on this freaken year....and holy heck. It's been a long one...good one most of the time....but long. Maybe its time for a change.....who knows....
I just want everything to be perfect, but it probably wont, but who cares. My life is full of small imperfections, that usually make me happy anyways.
Well I'm gonna go to bed my medicine is makin me think crazy!
Muah!
Then I had a crappy day with people period. Argh. Everything everybody did ticked me off today. I think its that new heart medicine they have me on, makes me irritable. Like I say stuff to my friends, and everybody that I would have never said otherwise. Usually I'm all like quiet and just like let people talk and now I'm like shut the eff up your just stupid. I'm so irritable, and effin tired, and over people.
I'm stressed out about my party, because well, I just am. It's my party....and I'll be stressed out if I want too.....I feel like everythings gonna go wrong, at the last minute because thats what happens. I feel like nobodys gonna come, because I feel like I have no friends anymore. I don't wanna be seventeen really, I wanna just stay sixteen. Sixteen just sounds so much better. Doesn't it?! I think back on this freaken year....and holy heck. It's been a long one...good one most of the time....but long. Maybe its time for a change.....who knows....
I just want everything to be perfect, but it probably wont, but who cares. My life is full of small imperfections, that usually make me happy anyways.
Well I'm gonna go to bed my medicine is makin me think crazy!
Muah!