life sucks, period.
For the last couple of weeks, I've been helping Nancy in the calf barn preparing myself for when I had to take care of all of the calves by myself this last weekend. It went fine.
Then I spent this last week going back and forth between the two houses, taking care of the horses, dogs, and cats since my parents went back up to Mayo(just for a check-up, nothing serious). But last night, I went to Todd & Johns w/ Katie, Debbie, Charlie, Jake, and another guy they know, and I just heard some things that got me real upset about Rob. Overall, I had a good time with them. There were also some "Good Games" at the end. Which is Katie smacking my ass really hard while saying "good game" with Charlie chiming in that we could continue that back at their place in bed(silly Charlie), but I got her back before we left. I miss working with her so much out at the farm, but at least we still keep in contact and there will be a lot more Wing nights to come this summer.
Yeah, I'm not sure if I want to talk about this or not, because I feel like such an idiot for falling for a guy who's involved with someone else. To make it worse it's not like I'm stopping what's happening, and now he's moving to Texas. I want to cry so badly right now, but unfortunately my pride is winning this one and I won't let myself. To think that I believed him when he said he cared for me. Especially when we've been talking on the phone a lot lately, and I had to learn from someone else last night that he took the position down in Texas. I'm just so irritated right now, and I just can't calm down. I just want to drive forever and never stop right now, but I just can't. I should've known better. I feel like such an idiot. The funny thing is I'll probably talk to him today or tomorrow and realize that I was just being stupid about this and was taking things too far out of context. I want to just stop answering his phone calls and cut off all contact with him, but I know I'm not strong enough to do that. I'm still debating on whether I'm going to Jake's wedding or not with him. Right now the only reason I want to go is so I can hang out with everyone from the farm who will be there, and I think Katie might be disappointed if I don't go.
Now, for some reason after I've sat here for awhile and read over what I typed I think I'm just really hormonal especially since it's that time of the month. Hoorah for elevated levels of estrogen!! I don't even feel like crying anymore, I'm actually kinda neutral about the whole thing, and still want to spend time with him. I absolutely hate these influctions of hormones that us women have to go through. Well, that's it for my bitching.
Then I spent this last week going back and forth between the two houses, taking care of the horses, dogs, and cats since my parents went back up to Mayo(just for a check-up, nothing serious). But last night, I went to Todd & Johns w/ Katie, Debbie, Charlie, Jake, and another guy they know, and I just heard some things that got me real upset about Rob. Overall, I had a good time with them. There were also some "Good Games" at the end. Which is Katie smacking my ass really hard while saying "good game" with Charlie chiming in that we could continue that back at their place in bed(silly Charlie), but I got her back before we left. I miss working with her so much out at the farm, but at least we still keep in contact and there will be a lot more Wing nights to come this summer.
Yeah, I'm not sure if I want to talk about this or not, because I feel like such an idiot for falling for a guy who's involved with someone else. To make it worse it's not like I'm stopping what's happening, and now he's moving to Texas. I want to cry so badly right now, but unfortunately my pride is winning this one and I won't let myself. To think that I believed him when he said he cared for me. Especially when we've been talking on the phone a lot lately, and I had to learn from someone else last night that he took the position down in Texas. I'm just so irritated right now, and I just can't calm down. I just want to drive forever and never stop right now, but I just can't. I should've known better. I feel like such an idiot. The funny thing is I'll probably talk to him today or tomorrow and realize that I was just being stupid about this and was taking things too far out of context. I want to just stop answering his phone calls and cut off all contact with him, but I know I'm not strong enough to do that. I'm still debating on whether I'm going to Jake's wedding or not with him. Right now the only reason I want to go is so I can hang out with everyone from the farm who will be there, and I think Katie might be disappointed if I don't go.
Now, for some reason after I've sat here for awhile and read over what I typed I think I'm just really hormonal especially since it's that time of the month. Hoorah for elevated levels of estrogen!! I don't even feel like crying anymore, I'm actually kinda neutral about the whole thing, and still want to spend time with him. I absolutely hate these influctions of hormones that us women have to go through. Well, that's it for my bitching.