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tomorrow is edc.
im nervous.
i haven't been to a rave in so long.
i'm not sure if i am going to roll, but if i do it will only be one pill and also, if i do it will be the last time i ever do it again.
i'm mostly scared because i am going to be in an environment supporting over 60,000 people.
it's a big place, but not big enough for 60,000 dirty ravers to fit comfortable.
it takes over an hour to walk about the length of a football field.
everyone is packed tight, shoulder to shoulder with everyone else.
and i know this might sound funny, but there hasn't been a massive like this since swine came about.
i'm sure at least a few people there will have the virus, and i'm sure many more will be carriers for it.
i guarantee that after EDC, swine will outbreak more than it ever has.
it will be on the news more than ever, and we are going to see more people die from it than ever before.
it is going to spread to more cities.
the people it attacks the most is people our age.
teenagers,
and the people it kills are those with the healthiest and strongest immune systems.
i'm taking every preventative measure i can.
i am bringing hand sanitizer, wearing a mask, not sharing anything with anyone, bringing vitamin C pills and have been loading up on naked juices all week.
i'm just scared it might not be enough, considering how, if i roll, my immune system will be almost non existent, therefore making me very susceptible to any kind of illness.
i know if i start experiencing flu like symptoms after EDC, i wont go to the doctor.
my family does not have insurance, and they're not going to send me to the doctor for the flu.
i'm just scared i wont go to the doctor, hoping it was only the flu, and it will be too late when i do go!
the week before a really big rave, whenever i do anything i think
"this could be the last time i ever do this"
or if i am doing something like say with my mom,
i think "if i die, this is going to be one of her last memories of me"
and this is why i stopped going to raves, and also the reason why i stopped doing drugs.
i don't like living thinking those things.
i hope & pray for a safe weekend and week after.
im nervous.
i haven't been to a rave in so long.
i'm not sure if i am going to roll, but if i do it will only be one pill and also, if i do it will be the last time i ever do it again.
i'm mostly scared because i am going to be in an environment supporting over 60,000 people.
it's a big place, but not big enough for 60,000 dirty ravers to fit comfortable.
it takes over an hour to walk about the length of a football field.
everyone is packed tight, shoulder to shoulder with everyone else.
and i know this might sound funny, but there hasn't been a massive like this since swine came about.
i'm sure at least a few people there will have the virus, and i'm sure many more will be carriers for it.
i guarantee that after EDC, swine will outbreak more than it ever has.
it will be on the news more than ever, and we are going to see more people die from it than ever before.
it is going to spread to more cities.
the people it attacks the most is people our age.
teenagers,
and the people it kills are those with the healthiest and strongest immune systems.
i'm taking every preventative measure i can.
i am bringing hand sanitizer, wearing a mask, not sharing anything with anyone, bringing vitamin C pills and have been loading up on naked juices all week.
i'm just scared it might not be enough, considering how, if i roll, my immune system will be almost non existent, therefore making me very susceptible to any kind of illness.
i know if i start experiencing flu like symptoms after EDC, i wont go to the doctor.
my family does not have insurance, and they're not going to send me to the doctor for the flu.
i'm just scared i wont go to the doctor, hoping it was only the flu, and it will be too late when i do go!
the week before a really big rave, whenever i do anything i think
"this could be the last time i ever do this"
or if i am doing something like say with my mom,
i think "if i die, this is going to be one of her last memories of me"
and this is why i stopped going to raves, and also the reason why i stopped doing drugs.
i don't like living thinking those things.
i hope & pray for a safe weekend and week after.