Don't overthink it...
I'm getting over myself a bit today. Over my illness, over my daydreaming, and over thinking that every relationship is going to be the same. I've put all my trust, faith and love in MHB and he has given me everything in return. I have to stop worrying so much, stop fearing that he has not invested himself with me as I have, because I know better. I DO trust him, although trusting someone at this point may be the hardest thing I have ever done. I trust him not to wake up one morning and 'realize' our relationship is meaningless to him. I trust him to be emotionally, physically, and mentally invested in our relationship, and I trust him to find ways to show me as much. I trust him to support me and those I hold dear, and every decision I make. I trust him to love me and desire me completely and unreservedly. And he has done all of those things. MHB is not PCL, and I hate that I must remind myself of that. He is a better man than I deserve, so I must work and strive to be worthy of him. He is SO worth it.