hurricane gustav
i am officially worried. gustav seems to have my family's (no, not new orleans proper) homes in his direct sight, and by landfall he's projected to be a category 5. katrina was a 3. my brother will have to evacuate his newborn baby. my wedding dress is at home. all antiqued in a box. all of my baby pictures. the beautiful deck overlooking the water that my parents built with their hands..the house that we've lived in since i was 10. it could all be gone. all of it. my parents could be homeless. my brother and his new wife and baby could be homeless. the amount of water that they're proposing this storm to throw up is tremendous. i'm sick with worry. my dad has been worried sick. there's a mandatory evacuation for my home town that's in effect tomorrow even before new orleans.
i wish they'd all just come here. i miss my family. i'm scared. and while i know the bulk of my stuff is here and safe...i wish i were with them. at least for katrina..we were all together. the entire gang of us. my uncle and his kids..my godfather and his kids..my granny.. we even had gypsy with us. now we're dogless...i'm here..theyre all there. i don't even know where my granny's going. i'm sure to alexandria. -sigh- i just...i don't like any of it.
i'm a mess. i know kate won't remember any of this...but it's wretched that my brother is having to deal with this...already. i called him last night..and he seemed so put together over it all...i was impressed..there was no sarcasm..no hint of pissy to his voice..none of that typical brother/sister banter..he sounded so grown up..he could tell i was worried..and when i said take care..he said it back and meant it...i was perplexed for a minute when we got off of the phone...chris said hed snap out of it..after the whole baby thing wears off a bit..but for now..the new baby definitely has made an impact on all of us. i haven't even met her yet and i think about her ALL the time. she's my godbaby.
anyways..i just hope this isn't as bad as everyone is predicting. it can't be.
xo.
i wish they'd all just come here. i miss my family. i'm scared. and while i know the bulk of my stuff is here and safe...i wish i were with them. at least for katrina..we were all together. the entire gang of us. my uncle and his kids..my godfather and his kids..my granny.. we even had gypsy with us. now we're dogless...i'm here..theyre all there. i don't even know where my granny's going. i'm sure to alexandria. -sigh- i just...i don't like any of it.
i'm a mess. i know kate won't remember any of this...but it's wretched that my brother is having to deal with this...already. i called him last night..and he seemed so put together over it all...i was impressed..there was no sarcasm..no hint of pissy to his voice..none of that typical brother/sister banter..he sounded so grown up..he could tell i was worried..and when i said take care..he said it back and meant it...i was perplexed for a minute when we got off of the phone...chris said hed snap out of it..after the whole baby thing wears off a bit..but for now..the new baby definitely has made an impact on all of us. i haven't even met her yet and i think about her ALL the time. she's my godbaby.
anyways..i just hope this isn't as bad as everyone is predicting. it can't be.
xo.