..you're the only place that feels like home..

[bowieluv]

i go home wednesday. i cry every night about it. hell, i doubt i'll make i through this without crying. home. this is home to me. here. these hills. organic food stores. playgrounds. sunday and tuesday drop off points. low humidity. snowy nights in the winter. -sigh- this is slowly eating me alive. nothing ever used to make me feel like hypervintilating like this does. granted, chris and the girls are coming with me for about a week. but he'll have to come back here. and i'll get to stay. sure, i'll get to plan the wedding. shop for a wedding dress. that stuff will be fun. but the money he used to use to come see me is now the money he has to use to pay regina's maintenance. so his hands are a bit more tied up. so it'll be a rough few months.

anyways, i'm closing this up. i can't sit here.

xo.