Peculiar State of Mind
I've been in a strange place these last few days, and not feeling entirely like myself. I thought I did really well on my Archaeology mid-term, and ended up with a C+. Trying to keep a positive outlook, I guess I'll try to take the constructive criticism that Beekman provided on my paper and utilize it with my final.
I've been very thoughtful lately too. Maybe it's the fall air, that does strange things to me I've found as I've wandered through the past archives of this journal. I think a lot come fall. Anyway, things with Arno since he surprised me have been mediocre to say the best, and I'm fearing that I'm seriously entertaining the thought of cutting ties and counting losses. As the LJ community laugh, shake their heads, and say, "Yeah, we've heard that 42,320,104 times before." I know, I'm sure I won't break up with him, but I'm definitely overwhelmed and not even wanting to speak with him on the phone.
It stems from the fact that he's being incredibly dull, lifeless, compassionateless, and heartless. He's just trucking on day by day, dead to the world, and while I can't understand where he's coming from or how bad his situation SUCKS, I do know that he put himself here and his SHITTY fucking attitude is doing nothing to help anyone. He's got himself convinced that it makes him strong because if he "thinks about things" then he'll get down. Well, you sure are acting down already.
That's about that...I have homework to do this weekend but feel so depressed I'd rather go home and sit in my living room that desperately needs cleaned and play FFXII.
I've been very thoughtful lately too. Maybe it's the fall air, that does strange things to me I've found as I've wandered through the past archives of this journal. I think a lot come fall. Anyway, things with Arno since he surprised me have been mediocre to say the best, and I'm fearing that I'm seriously entertaining the thought of cutting ties and counting losses. As the LJ community laugh, shake their heads, and say, "Yeah, we've heard that 42,320,104 times before." I know, I'm sure I won't break up with him, but I'm definitely overwhelmed and not even wanting to speak with him on the phone.
It stems from the fact that he's being incredibly dull, lifeless, compassionateless, and heartless. He's just trucking on day by day, dead to the world, and while I can't understand where he's coming from or how bad his situation SUCKS, I do know that he put himself here and his SHITTY fucking attitude is doing nothing to help anyone. He's got himself convinced that it makes him strong because if he "thinks about things" then he'll get down. Well, you sure are acting down already.
That's about that...I have homework to do this weekend but feel so depressed I'd rather go home and sit in my living room that desperately needs cleaned and play FFXII.