Auditions & Call Backs
Monday night was auditions for the two shows our Theatre Department is performing this semester: Women of Lockerbie and Twelfth Night.
They went really well. I felt good about my audition piece and was really glad that I'd chosen to workshop it with Fulton some beforehand.
I was Called Back for both shows.
Lockerbie Call Backs were scheduled for Tuesday - Twelfth Night Call Backs for Wednesday.
Now, I'll be completely honest - I didn't really have my heart set on a Lockerbie role. If I got one, that would be cool and all - but it would also be kind of nice to have half the semester to focus strictly on my schoolwork et al. But it's considered in poor taste not to go to Call Backs when you've auditioned, so I went. Who knows - maybe I could just get put in the Chorus and not have to worry about much.
I was absolutely miserable last night. Just incredibly sick. I've had a cold for the past few days and it just kept getting worse. My throat hurt, my entire body ached, and my energy was gone. I just wanted to get the Call Backs over and be done with it all and go home and soak in a hot bubble bath.
I went in to read for the role of Hattie first. Nothing much to the scene. I read the lines, did the part. Nothing special. But before walking out, Keone (the director) asked me to wait around and read for the role of Maddie. So I told him I would and left he audition room.
Now, I hadn't read the entire script but I knew the premise of the story. It's about Lockerbie, Scotland - the place over which Pan Am Flight 103 was bombed by terrorists. The story follows different women that were affected by this bombing...including Maddie - the mother of a boy on the plane.
So Evan comes outside and asks me to read a scene with him between Bill (the husband) and Maddie (the wife). I agreed and we went into the lobby to read it together.
...that scene completely and utterly broke my heart...
I didn't expect it at all, but suddenly my heart was so incredibly burdened for this woman. This mother that lost her son in such an awful tragedy. And here's her husband trying to move on with life...and she's just brokenly demanding "what is there to move onto? Breakfast? Lunch? Dinner? How do you move on after something like this?"
By the end of the scene, I was all but sobbing. It was just too much. I have never before connected with any character ever on such a deep, emotional level. I remember the sense of complete loss and hopelessness when Stephen died and it made me sick - and I remember thinking those exact same thought. How do you move on, when something like that happens?
I performed the scene about six times with various men reading for Bill. Every time I couldn't help but to get emotionally and painfully choked up. I was exhausted by the end of the night - and at one point, when I was reading with Josh, I just had to drop my head forward and hold onto him for a second because it was so much pain to take on and connect to. I didn't want to do it anymore. It hurt so badly.
I honestly think that scene played best when I was reading it with Evan & Josh. It is a scene that forces you to become vulnerable and completely exposed - and I'm not very good at that, in general. But with those two boys, I already trust them implicitely. So I felt safe and secure opening myself in such a manner. The rest was just a natural flow.
Call Backs started around 7:00. I was released around 11:00...and I was emotionally drained and shaking. I have never felt so deeply invested in a character before.
This morning I got a text message from Josh...
"Have you seen the cast list yet?"
- "No. I haven't... Tell me."
- "Looks like he went insane while typing it...he put us on it for some reason."
Honestly, I could not be more excited. To be able to do one of my final shows in this school opposite of Josh will be a wonderful and memorable experience for both of us. Plus, having now read the script in full, this story really touches my heart and I really want to be part of the telling of it.
It's going to be a long, difficult semester...but hopefully a good and a memorable one as well.
tl;dr - Very emotional night. Difficult subject to deal with. I got the part. Yay!
They went really well. I felt good about my audition piece and was really glad that I'd chosen to workshop it with Fulton some beforehand.
I was Called Back for both shows.
Lockerbie Call Backs were scheduled for Tuesday - Twelfth Night Call Backs for Wednesday.
Now, I'll be completely honest - I didn't really have my heart set on a Lockerbie role. If I got one, that would be cool and all - but it would also be kind of nice to have half the semester to focus strictly on my schoolwork et al. But it's considered in poor taste not to go to Call Backs when you've auditioned, so I went. Who knows - maybe I could just get put in the Chorus and not have to worry about much.
I was absolutely miserable last night. Just incredibly sick. I've had a cold for the past few days and it just kept getting worse. My throat hurt, my entire body ached, and my energy was gone. I just wanted to get the Call Backs over and be done with it all and go home and soak in a hot bubble bath.
I went in to read for the role of Hattie first. Nothing much to the scene. I read the lines, did the part. Nothing special. But before walking out, Keone (the director) asked me to wait around and read for the role of Maddie. So I told him I would and left he audition room.
Now, I hadn't read the entire script but I knew the premise of the story. It's about Lockerbie, Scotland - the place over which Pan Am Flight 103 was bombed by terrorists. The story follows different women that were affected by this bombing...including Maddie - the mother of a boy on the plane.
So Evan comes outside and asks me to read a scene with him between Bill (the husband) and Maddie (the wife). I agreed and we went into the lobby to read it together.
...that scene completely and utterly broke my heart...
I didn't expect it at all, but suddenly my heart was so incredibly burdened for this woman. This mother that lost her son in such an awful tragedy. And here's her husband trying to move on with life...and she's just brokenly demanding "what is there to move onto? Breakfast? Lunch? Dinner? How do you move on after something like this?"
By the end of the scene, I was all but sobbing. It was just too much. I have never before connected with any character ever on such a deep, emotional level. I remember the sense of complete loss and hopelessness when Stephen died and it made me sick - and I remember thinking those exact same thought. How do you move on, when something like that happens?
I performed the scene about six times with various men reading for Bill. Every time I couldn't help but to get emotionally and painfully choked up. I was exhausted by the end of the night - and at one point, when I was reading with Josh, I just had to drop my head forward and hold onto him for a second because it was so much pain to take on and connect to. I didn't want to do it anymore. It hurt so badly.
I honestly think that scene played best when I was reading it with Evan & Josh. It is a scene that forces you to become vulnerable and completely exposed - and I'm not very good at that, in general. But with those two boys, I already trust them implicitely. So I felt safe and secure opening myself in such a manner. The rest was just a natural flow.
Call Backs started around 7:00. I was released around 11:00...and I was emotionally drained and shaking. I have never felt so deeply invested in a character before.
This morning I got a text message from Josh...
"Have you seen the cast list yet?"
- "No. I haven't... Tell me."
- "Looks like he went insane while typing it...he put us on it for some reason."
Honestly, I could not be more excited. To be able to do one of my final shows in this school opposite of Josh will be a wonderful and memorable experience for both of us. Plus, having now read the script in full, this story really touches my heart and I really want to be part of the telling of it.
It's going to be a long, difficult semester...but hopefully a good and a memorable one as well.
tl;dr - Very emotional night. Difficult subject to deal with. I got the part. Yay!