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so i'm thinking i should start writing again. i havent in a while. I should go to the park on main street i feel like thats my place no one is ever really there but i like being around people when i write i'm a people watcher i need another good book to read too.
i feel like i've lost a lot of friends. and i am learning that people who don't really know me have problems with me. mostly girls, but i've always delt with that just because i don't relate to (most) girls as well as i can with a lot of my guy friends. i think it's because i grew up with all brothers and i was the only girl in daycare for a long time and even when there were my best friends were trey gagne and shane robeda. I don't know i got tortured every day by a girl in seventh grae adn was in mr bissells office every day cring so i went back to sjs and THEN there i got a hate website dedicated to how much someone hated me. i never understood what i did, but i guess i'm still doing it because girls who don't know me think i am a bitch. i know sometimes when i am wasted i can make comments but i honestly dont feel that way and i am not the most talkative person when i meet new people in MOST situations sooo that may come off as bitchy i think thats why i couldnt do the whole dorm living thing. the girls didnt like me because i didntdo things with them like sleep overs or dressin up and i was always in the guys' hall and they didnt agree with my choices. Oh well. Most of the time i don't care because i know who i am and what i'm about, but sometimes i feel like everyone looks at me like that and i should stand up for myself.
i feel like i've lost a lot of friends. and i am learning that people who don't really know me have problems with me. mostly girls, but i've always delt with that just because i don't relate to (most) girls as well as i can with a lot of my guy friends. i think it's because i grew up with all brothers and i was the only girl in daycare for a long time and even when there were my best friends were trey gagne and shane robeda. I don't know i got tortured every day by a girl in seventh grae adn was in mr bissells office every day cring so i went back to sjs and THEN there i got a hate website dedicated to how much someone hated me. i never understood what i did, but i guess i'm still doing it because girls who don't know me think i am a bitch. i know sometimes when i am wasted i can make comments but i honestly dont feel that way and i am not the most talkative person when i meet new people in MOST situations sooo that may come off as bitchy i think thats why i couldnt do the whole dorm living thing. the girls didnt like me because i didntdo things with them like sleep overs or dressin up and i was always in the guys' hall and they didnt agree with my choices. Oh well. Most of the time i don't care because i know who i am and what i'm about, but sometimes i feel like everyone looks at me like that and i should stand up for myself.