i don't know what it's like to not come back to you. i don't know who i like less me or you.
i can't eat anything anymore. everything i eat makes my stomach hurt. i have lost another 20 pounds. i don't really notice is physically but it's happened. that scale says so and the apparently scales don't lie. it's weird.
So it's official i've wired money to sarah and she is supposed to have gotten the tickets. I am excited now just for the hotel situation. Hopefully you don't have to be 21 in philly. Because it would be cool AND we could hang out with tinker and katie and have a good time there before we drive the rest of the way home. it will be fun if the hotel thing happens. either way i am glad two of my favorite people are coming to make the haul with me. I have thrown a lot of things away to make room for them in my car. now ijust hope it makes the trip haha.
I WANT MY TATTOO NOW. RIGHT NOW. i will probably have to wait for the extra money though. oh well it will be worth it.
It rained today it was soo hott today i enjoyed it.
the goo goo dolls are still together? weird. They remind me of that summer i was 16 i think in kyles jeep. staying up all night sneaking out and going to the lake and getting yelled at by old people. driving for hours just to drive. I miss that summer a lot. I wouldn't be who i am if it weren't for those friendships and those memories and the experiences we went through together. And i wonder why i let myself loose touch with people that have been such a big part of me. It's not that i stop wanting to be their friend i just stop calling. the people i hang out with change and i change how i spend my time. I wonder if that's just what's supposed to happen. or if people think i just stop caring because i don't. i just don't know. anyways things were easier. things were new. and i didn't have any decisions to make besides what to drink that night or which cds to listen to. I guess things could be that simple again if i let all of this go. oh well. in two weeks things will change again and that i will keep me busy.
i miss you. and will see you soon.
So it's official i've wired money to sarah and she is supposed to have gotten the tickets. I am excited now just for the hotel situation. Hopefully you don't have to be 21 in philly. Because it would be cool AND we could hang out with tinker and katie and have a good time there before we drive the rest of the way home. it will be fun if the hotel thing happens. either way i am glad two of my favorite people are coming to make the haul with me. I have thrown a lot of things away to make room for them in my car. now ijust hope it makes the trip haha.
I WANT MY TATTOO NOW. RIGHT NOW. i will probably have to wait for the extra money though. oh well it will be worth it.
It rained today it was soo hott today i enjoyed it.
the goo goo dolls are still together? weird. They remind me of that summer i was 16 i think in kyles jeep. staying up all night sneaking out and going to the lake and getting yelled at by old people. driving for hours just to drive. I miss that summer a lot. I wouldn't be who i am if it weren't for those friendships and those memories and the experiences we went through together. And i wonder why i let myself loose touch with people that have been such a big part of me. It's not that i stop wanting to be their friend i just stop calling. the people i hang out with change and i change how i spend my time. I wonder if that's just what's supposed to happen. or if people think i just stop caring because i don't. i just don't know. anyways things were easier. things were new. and i didn't have any decisions to make besides what to drink that night or which cds to listen to. I guess things could be that simple again if i let all of this go. oh well. in two weeks things will change again and that i will keep me busy.
i miss you. and will see you soon.