well damn.
Long time no see journal.
I've lost a couple of pounds and my har is back black and blonde. I'm still the same old reckless me.
AFter two years of not seeing him, i seen him again. Mike is back in Williamstown and it's drove me crazy. He's broke 5 sexbracelets and no matter how much i want to fuck him i can't. I don't know why but i can't. He played with my spots until i positively wanted to. but didn't. Then we (meaning tasha and i) went to the skate park where we met the 20 year old ronnie and I gave him a hand job and he fingered me. Go fucking figure. I don't know what hte hell is wrong with me anymore.
Hmmm... Band is starting up next month. I can't wait. I'll get to see erica again and i can't wait. She's prolly pissed that i haven't been texting back but i just got minutes on my phone 3 houts ago.
I passed with a 4.0 with honours again. yay go me. I'm so unenthusiastic right now it's not funny. Everyone expects that shit from me it's no suprise when i pull it off.
I love mike so damn much. I'm fucking infatuated and i can't fuck him. All those times that i cried in his arms. All the laughing, blood, and tears. I just can't no matter how much i want to.. i just can't. It's fucking weird. I've "overdosed" twice and i ended up saying so really bad shit to him that i can't take back because i said it was true, and it is. I asked him what i told him and he said "what you told me will just stay between you and i."
That is good. Seeing that i probably told him i was raped and that i was born addicted to crank.
I'm cutting again. I just missed it too much to stop. I stopped cutting for 27 days and i stopped smoking for 23. Now with my nerves shot with my damn grandma i am smoking and cutting again. Wow. I was so damn close yet so damn far.
La la la.. off to sleepy land. I'll post again whenever i get ahold of a computer and some free time.
I've lost a couple of pounds and my har is back black and blonde. I'm still the same old reckless me.
AFter two years of not seeing him, i seen him again. Mike is back in Williamstown and it's drove me crazy. He's broke 5 sexbracelets and no matter how much i want to fuck him i can't. I don't know why but i can't. He played with my spots until i positively wanted to. but didn't. Then we (meaning tasha and i) went to the skate park where we met the 20 year old ronnie and I gave him a hand job and he fingered me. Go fucking figure. I don't know what hte hell is wrong with me anymore.
Hmmm... Band is starting up next month. I can't wait. I'll get to see erica again and i can't wait. She's prolly pissed that i haven't been texting back but i just got minutes on my phone 3 houts ago.
I passed with a 4.0 with honours again. yay go me. I'm so unenthusiastic right now it's not funny. Everyone expects that shit from me it's no suprise when i pull it off.
I love mike so damn much. I'm fucking infatuated and i can't fuck him. All those times that i cried in his arms. All the laughing, blood, and tears. I just can't no matter how much i want to.. i just can't. It's fucking weird. I've "overdosed" twice and i ended up saying so really bad shit to him that i can't take back because i said it was true, and it is. I asked him what i told him and he said "what you told me will just stay between you and i."
That is good. Seeing that i probably told him i was raped and that i was born addicted to crank.
I'm cutting again. I just missed it too much to stop. I stopped cutting for 27 days and i stopped smoking for 23. Now with my nerves shot with my damn grandma i am smoking and cutting again. Wow. I was so damn close yet so damn far.
La la la.. off to sleepy land. I'll post again whenever i get ahold of a computer and some free time.