use my body while on earth for in heaven i'll need it no longer
falling faster and faster into a beginning rage of idolatry. i'm battling the thought of taking a time out with outside people and those to whom i let my sin engulf me. i blame only myself and my weak spirit. i asked and received, and although He knew i was not ready, graciously He let me stumble over my own two weak feet. "she'll learn", He says lovingly. i'm writing with gratitude and a bit of stubbornness. i know what i have to do, because short-term goals are not what i live for. i live for the eternal servitute of my God, and life is just steps up the old rugged ladder. but no matter the quality of that ladder, i will strive for Him, surrendering what i must, for it WILL be worth it in the end.