part of an email sent to Bo. An update about life
As for me, I'm working hecka hard here st SVU. Classes are demanding. But even if they weren't I'm in a very prominent position on the student government and the time constraint alone is killer, let alone the emotional and mental drain on me. It's rewarding in its way though, too. Boys here are dumb. They... well he, imparticular- doesn't like me back. Just more of the same crap from high school, except these guys are worth the time of day. His name is Adam. He's amazing and I am thoroughly smitten. And we've talked about this twice and he isn't interested in me in the ways that I want him to be. What a surprise. I've found me another guy friend, I guess. hm. I've still never had a first kiss. And being here in this atmosphere makes me want to get married. In my dorm, I'm living with two girls (18 years old) who are engaged. Then there's me. That's it. It's the three of us in this room. And I can't manage to have that extra whatever it takes to even interest a guy of my liking. bah.
But life is good. I have incredible friends. SVU really is a family and these people are my brothers and sisters and the love and support is so sickening sometimes, Barney would puke for the cheesiness. I adore it. I love this place. And I graduate in about a year. And I've realized that I'm never going to live at home again. mom is buying a house with my grandparents to take care of them while the get more and more feeble and there isn't really a place for me. Not that it makes a huge difference, since there aren't opportunities there that I need or want. it does make me sort of sad to realize all this, but sort of not. I'm trying to get home for spring break. I think it's mostly to say good-bye to the place as home. that sucks to actually say. But anyway, we need to see eachother when I come. We can revel in memories and so forth. Anyway, life is really calling me so I gotta jet.
Later, lauren
But life is good. I have incredible friends. SVU really is a family and these people are my brothers and sisters and the love and support is so sickening sometimes, Barney would puke for the cheesiness. I adore it. I love this place. And I graduate in about a year. And I've realized that I'm never going to live at home again. mom is buying a house with my grandparents to take care of them while the get more and more feeble and there isn't really a place for me. Not that it makes a huge difference, since there aren't opportunities there that I need or want. it does make me sort of sad to realize all this, but sort of not. I'm trying to get home for spring break. I think it's mostly to say good-bye to the place as home. that sucks to actually say. But anyway, we need to see eachother when I come. We can revel in memories and so forth. Anyway, life is really calling me so I gotta jet.
Later, lauren