oh so ronery....
i feel really lonely right now.
it's weird considering i spent all day with friends.
maybe going from having people there all day to having nobody is why i feel like this right now.
i don't do so good by myself. what am i going to do when i leave arizona?
living on my own in a city with no friends. maybe i'll find someone who wants to come with me.
wishful thinking.
i wish that i had a girl that i could just keep in my closet. someone who was there at all times whenever i needed her.
i could take her out at times like this and she could just keep me company. lay in bed with me and watch a movie. maybe sing something to me or just have a conversation. maybe not say anything at all but just lay next to me.
you always sleep better when you're not sleeping alone.
sing to me.
i remember when i was little my mom used to sit on the side of my bed and sing to me when i was feeling sick or had a nightmare. she would rub my head and sing the same song, the prayer of saint francis. everything was ok when she was singing to me. that was at my old house in california. back home.
this house has never really been home i realized. ma flug was home.
best friends are all going to tucson this weekend. im staying to work.
im jealous of huy and tony not having to work. i wish i could do that, almost like getting to stay young longer than the world tells you you're allowed to.
motorcycle soon. break in the monotony.
life isn't worth living if you aren't living it the way you want to.
don't worry so much about me, enjoy the time we have. everyone dies someday.
from the moment you are born you begin to die.
was this entry too emo for you matt?
wasn't trying to be. kinda just hoping someone relates.
happy birthday huy.
strength and honor.
it's weird considering i spent all day with friends.
maybe going from having people there all day to having nobody is why i feel like this right now.
i don't do so good by myself. what am i going to do when i leave arizona?
living on my own in a city with no friends. maybe i'll find someone who wants to come with me.
wishful thinking.
i wish that i had a girl that i could just keep in my closet. someone who was there at all times whenever i needed her.
i could take her out at times like this and she could just keep me company. lay in bed with me and watch a movie. maybe sing something to me or just have a conversation. maybe not say anything at all but just lay next to me.
you always sleep better when you're not sleeping alone.
sing to me.
i remember when i was little my mom used to sit on the side of my bed and sing to me when i was feeling sick or had a nightmare. she would rub my head and sing the same song, the prayer of saint francis. everything was ok when she was singing to me. that was at my old house in california. back home.
this house has never really been home i realized. ma flug was home.
best friends are all going to tucson this weekend. im staying to work.
im jealous of huy and tony not having to work. i wish i could do that, almost like getting to stay young longer than the world tells you you're allowed to.
motorcycle soon. break in the monotony.
life isn't worth living if you aren't living it the way you want to.
don't worry so much about me, enjoy the time we have. everyone dies someday.
from the moment you are born you begin to die.
was this entry too emo for you matt?
wasn't trying to be. kinda just hoping someone relates.
happy birthday huy.
strength and honor.