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I need to change my life. I have been saying for the past week that I feel as if I'm on the brink of something, on the brink of change, but I'm not even certain that I know what this elusive "change" feels like. I bring things up to be so much, and then on one particularly sunny day in the middle of February, I tear them all down with a single thought.
I have all these thoughts and wishes and hopes, and yet as they always say, I am my own worst enemy. For whatever reason, I am holding myself back from doing everything I've ever wanted to do. Well most things.
Resolutions do not help. The old year has peaked, and a new one has begun. That is not something that motivates the human spirit to affect change. Yes, we may want it, but it is not enough for us to try as hard as we can to grasp it. What needs to come about, is something more personal, something that you can feel throughout every bone in your body, that expressly horrible feeling of need for something different. This is when you will adamently struggle for as long as you have to- for the time when there will be be no more struggling.
In a few days I turn 18, and I feel as if I'm on the brink of something. I need to start writing more. How anyone can sit listening to the same highpitched fuzzy sounds groaning from the television they're not really paying attention to is beyond me. I guess that's why i should turn it off.
-M
I have all these thoughts and wishes and hopes, and yet as they always say, I am my own worst enemy. For whatever reason, I am holding myself back from doing everything I've ever wanted to do. Well most things.
Resolutions do not help. The old year has peaked, and a new one has begun. That is not something that motivates the human spirit to affect change. Yes, we may want it, but it is not enough for us to try as hard as we can to grasp it. What needs to come about, is something more personal, something that you can feel throughout every bone in your body, that expressly horrible feeling of need for something different. This is when you will adamently struggle for as long as you have to- for the time when there will be be no more struggling.
In a few days I turn 18, and I feel as if I'm on the brink of something. I need to start writing more. How anyone can sit listening to the same highpitched fuzzy sounds groaning from the television they're not really paying attention to is beyond me. I guess that's why i should turn it off.
-M