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I don't know how to explain this feeling, I used to get like this after a long binge, I would isolate myself, turn off my phone, take down all social media.
and say fuck the world no one loves me.
After all the events that have happened this year
my stress level has been maxed out, I isolated myself because I didn't know who I could speak to about the situation, I wasn't sure if I was even allowed to talk about it, and on top of all of that the people in my life spreading rumors, believing rumors and being just all around shitty, really bothered me, So the last week I started to feel better...life is getting better, life is good, then
all of a sudden I felt as if I am unimportant, unwanted and not needed as a human being, with all of that being very untrue, I still feel/felt it, I know I have people in my life that care I just couldn't get that feeling out of my head or from under my skin, What is wrong with me?
Because of my own isolation I felt as if no one wanted to be around me, I thought that even though I had been avoiding a lot of time with people that they would see I've snapped out of it and immediately want to see me, instead no one noticed, because I never got to show anyone.
I still haven't gotten used to the fact that not everything happens at my pace, and I need patients, instant gratification is what I look for and end up disappointed when it doesn't turn out how I would have liked.
Now how do I work on my issues of isolation, depression and needs? I want to learn how to address the issue without going insane about it.
fml.
and say fuck the world no one loves me.
After all the events that have happened this year
my stress level has been maxed out, I isolated myself because I didn't know who I could speak to about the situation, I wasn't sure if I was even allowed to talk about it, and on top of all of that the people in my life spreading rumors, believing rumors and being just all around shitty, really bothered me, So the last week I started to feel better...life is getting better, life is good, then
all of a sudden I felt as if I am unimportant, unwanted and not needed as a human being, with all of that being very untrue, I still feel/felt it, I know I have people in my life that care I just couldn't get that feeling out of my head or from under my skin, What is wrong with me?
Because of my own isolation I felt as if no one wanted to be around me, I thought that even though I had been avoiding a lot of time with people that they would see I've snapped out of it and immediately want to see me, instead no one noticed, because I never got to show anyone.
I still haven't gotten used to the fact that not everything happens at my pace, and I need patients, instant gratification is what I look for and end up disappointed when it doesn't turn out how I would have liked.
Now how do I work on my issues of isolation, depression and needs? I want to learn how to address the issue without going insane about it.
fml.