I'm fat full of emotion.
When I have to hide things, hold things in rather, because speaking of them may add fuel to the flame already started, it isn't easy for me, it's like secrets, I rarely keep them because it eats away at a part of me, I feel as if I am going to burst.
Lately I have been learning how to deal with my chaotic life, it's not easy without my drug of choice, i'd say not feeling feelings is a lot easier than feeling at all, I can remember my counselor asking me "What gives you that right" Well I'm pretty sure i'm fucking human and I have the right to choose regardless the consequences, Now for the choice I make I try to avoid the negative consequences, that is the only thing that makes me choose, what are the consequences?
Its so fucking easy, yet so hard.
So tired, but still motivated, who knows what life is going to bring me, what choice will I have in that? ...to be continued.
Lately I have been learning how to deal with my chaotic life, it's not easy without my drug of choice, i'd say not feeling feelings is a lot easier than feeling at all, I can remember my counselor asking me "What gives you that right" Well I'm pretty sure i'm fucking human and I have the right to choose regardless the consequences, Now for the choice I make I try to avoid the negative consequences, that is the only thing that makes me choose, what are the consequences?
Its so fucking easy, yet so hard.
So tired, but still motivated, who knows what life is going to bring me, what choice will I have in that? ...to be continued.