marbles
So here it is...all the marbles. I cant stay the same. I have looked at my life and seen a man that doesnt interest me anymore. Lived under a veil of failure and indecision. Hid behind a wall of self imposd lies that i was ok to ignore my own spirit. Makeing sure i didnt affect anything or anyone because i was afraid id be a lier. I hate liers. (Maybe i have too many marbles.) Im not sure if everyone is always afraid of change but i can say for sure that this change doesnt scare me. I hide my heart because i didnt want God to see the evil in me. I now see it doesnt work like that. Evil can be many things; Fear, hate, complacency, laziness, empathy..... The question is not "If what inside me is evil?" the question becomes can i give it to God. Can i let it go....can i change? Not change because of fear or anything else listed but change because i know He wants me too. Because i know its how i connect with God. Or i could just continue to be selfish & not care what God wants by acting ignorant or confused. I was good at it for a while.....maybe i should consider an acting career. But then again i do hate liers.