jurisdiction

[botheredbadger]

 the other week i had an especially vivid dream but there's only really one segment of it that i remember strongly. it was dark, and some kind of machine was burying all these people in a mass grave, moving soil and bodies around at random, and somehow i knew that sarah was in there. i started trying to drag her out, and she was still alive, and as soon as i had a real hold on her a bullet went through her chest and the part of the dream that stayed with me and replayed over and over was seeing the life and pain going out of her eyes into nothing. and then the difficulty of not having people understand how a center of my world and my identity was suddenly gone.
i don't get dreams like that very often, but more and more the only dreams i remember are nightmares.
looking up soup and sandwich recipes.
-anna