things i'm afraid of

[botheredbadger]

i hate how many things, from the every day to the outlandish, i am constantly afraid and paranoid of. they include, but are not limited to, the following:
dying in a car crash
breast cancer
choking when no one else is near
being jumped on the short walk from my car to my front door
an airplane crashing into my house
accidentally leaving my curling iron or stove on when i leave the house and causing a fire
ghosts / demons
becoming infected with HIV / AIDS
becoming homeless
zombie viruses
rapists breaking into my house at night
being killed by a stray bullet
staph infections
sharks
lake monsters
aliens
debt

i feel like the world shouldn't contain a nearly endless array of things to be afraid of. i wish that i was a reasonable and rational enough person to accept those fears and realize that even if they do happen, then that's really just how it is and i will live better if i can acknowledge and be alright with it, if i can really practice being in the moment and at peace with my life and the world.
all the same, i hope i never have to deal with something like being infected with AIDS or dealing with alien invasions.
-anna