freakin cheez

[botched_beauty]

and ill try to find the words that are on the tip of my toungue. but its so hard. things have to end someday. when miscommunication kicks in, and theres rele nothing left...right? when tears take over your smiles more than ever..isnt it time to quit? or is it a time to stand up strong, and hold your head up high and try and make things better? all those dances ive shared with the moon instead of you...is it time, to capture the moon in a bottle, put some stars and clouds with it to make it feel like home, and put it in the cabinet for later days? days when you arent there to dance with me? the only question is...when will the time come when i can have you back, and save the moon for later? when will that time come when i can have the feelings i once had for you back? the feelings i have for you now, im so unsure of. i dont know what i feel at this very moment. i dont know you anymore it seems. and i dont know how you feel about me. when will that time come when i can look into your oblivious eyes and not see someone else, not feel so in the way? ive wished, and ive prayed. i tried to ignore the issue, but then you started to ignore me, and the things important that i needed to say. i felt so used. when will that time come when i can have you back?
a couple of days ago...i felt like i felt almost 4 months ago...and im not sure whether or not i like that feeling. im not sure of anything anymore...if only you knew....if only youd listen to me. if only you just tried...

tonight was the semi formal. im glad i didnt go...but im also upset that i didnt. o well...its not all my fault, i guess....but who am i to blame but myself. boo hiss