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i hate making choices! its all we are. one big pile of choices we make, let it be jump in front of the bullet or which tooth paste to buy its all you. i hate it. damn college and all its thinking how easy would it be to drown on day after day not thinking for yourself? as long as you dont know what is going on or what your missing. ignorance is bliss. i dont really believe that i just think about things way too much. which is odd with the amount i smoke. blah! im torn at the moment and the fact that i know both outcomes and neither is the right choice drives me crazy. why cant life be black and white? good and evil, right and wrong? the worst part is it is something only i can decide and i cant inform anyone of the choice until after or the decision will be tainted with the opinion of others. damn me and my indecisiveness. but other than that im great...