goin down
I wear when I write in this thing its usually pretty negative, I guess the things that stick to me the most are just negative, I dunno. Right now everything is kinda going downhill. My family situation right now....is hectic I don't remember I time when my family has been so ripped apart, we've gone through trauma after trauma ever since I was in the 6th grade, I mean huge events, ppl dying, divorces, births, ppl becoming hospitalized or extremely ill...etc and they happen at least every 2 months. Yesterday I was under the impression that we would become much more poor and lose my house. Aside from the family which is worse than what I've even told about, my depression is getting worse and my medications I'm on for it are fucking up my body and I may have to switch again. I'm just complaining right now I guess, I'm just sad, stressed, and lonely. I even found the perfect person, my age, same interests, so sweet and seemingly interested, but I'm positive that's out of my league. I'm drifting from everyone, even myself...