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i realized that my birthday's in two days and i started crying. i don't know why i'm so emotionally unstable, considering that i'm feeling much better about myself recently. i don't know what i want to do on my birthday, and i had wanted to see a lot of people, but i don't know if i'll be able handle to that, we may have to hang out a different day cause i'm probably going to be depressed if i hang out with people on my actual birthday. why am i suddenly getting so fucking emotional? maybe it's that i've realized that all i want is what i can't have. and even though i'm chill with everything i can't help getting quiet, always. around you.
i really want to dye my hair/get a piercing before i go to school. any thoughts on color/what piercing (even though i've asked some of you about 1500 times)? but maybe that's just another excuse. at this point i'm done with excuses. except one.