Get me away from here I'm dying, DA DA DA DA DA DA DA
November 23, 1990, Experimental Farm
I convinced my mother that my being at school on a short, almost teacherless day was pointless, as I would get much more done by staying put. So I slept and read. It feels like I slept some awful things away. They're still there but are much more likely to come and get me at night now. I don't know. I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING. Too many thoughts and ideas are attacking my brain but my vocabulary is too limited and my words not eloquent enough for me to say or write anything that makes any sense. I've been getting so frustrated reading, knowing I will never be able to write or think the way these people do. I've never wanted to be a writer but I still need to be able to let out and build on some of the things stuck in my head. SO. THANKSGIVING: Penina made a Plan of Action which has like 92837059872 steps because she's making like 92837059872 dishes. Number one was "Shoot bird". She is insane. And it is going to be soooooooo much fun for us to watch her and her friends eat too much and get drunk at 3 in the afternoon while Sally and Paul sit awkwardly by. That's not going to happen but if you know her you understand why there might be cause for concern. AHAHAHAHA. She brought home two Knob Hill baskets full of books from some sale last weekend so I've been amusing myself with those instead of starting my stupid commentary. I should just quit IB and put this machine in front of a train and read all day. I love trains.... I'll read all day on a train. That way, I'll get to see the world AND learn way more than any of this is teaching me. Sara, you said something really nice while I was singing this weekend and I've been thinking about it a lot since. I completely trust you when it comes to this subject and value your opinion and it made me happy. HAPHAPHAPHAPIDYHAPPY. One of my lights burnt out and now I'm going to get YELLED AT for being too lazy to not change it. I want to go on an adventure. I get to FINALLY swim on Monday which will make everything brighter. Also, it means that I hopefully wont be falling through the floor this winter due to added weight from SITTING ON MY ASS AND DOING ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. I want to take down the ugly yellow thing in my window. I think I'm going to start wearing gloves to attempt to avoid these cold cold hands. Except you can't do anything in gloves. That's boring. Stupid idea.
GOODNIGHT AND HAPPY TURKEY EATING.
I convinced my mother that my being at school on a short, almost teacherless day was pointless, as I would get much more done by staying put. So I slept and read. It feels like I slept some awful things away. They're still there but are much more likely to come and get me at night now. I don't know. I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING. Too many thoughts and ideas are attacking my brain but my vocabulary is too limited and my words not eloquent enough for me to say or write anything that makes any sense. I've been getting so frustrated reading, knowing I will never be able to write or think the way these people do. I've never wanted to be a writer but I still need to be able to let out and build on some of the things stuck in my head. SO. THANKSGIVING: Penina made a Plan of Action which has like 92837059872 steps because she's making like 92837059872 dishes. Number one was "Shoot bird". She is insane. And it is going to be soooooooo much fun for us to watch her and her friends eat too much and get drunk at 3 in the afternoon while Sally and Paul sit awkwardly by. That's not going to happen but if you know her you understand why there might be cause for concern. AHAHAHAHA. She brought home two Knob Hill baskets full of books from some sale last weekend so I've been amusing myself with those instead of starting my stupid commentary. I should just quit IB and put this machine in front of a train and read all day. I love trains.... I'll read all day on a train. That way, I'll get to see the world AND learn way more than any of this is teaching me. Sara, you said something really nice while I was singing this weekend and I've been thinking about it a lot since. I completely trust you when it comes to this subject and value your opinion and it made me happy. HAPHAPHAPHAPIDYHAPPY. One of my lights burnt out and now I'm going to get YELLED AT for being too lazy to not change it. I want to go on an adventure. I get to FINALLY swim on Monday which will make everything brighter. Also, it means that I hopefully wont be falling through the floor this winter due to added weight from SITTING ON MY ASS AND DOING ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. I want to take down the ugly yellow thing in my window. I think I'm going to start wearing gloves to attempt to avoid these cold cold hands. Except you can't do anything in gloves. That's boring. Stupid idea.
GOODNIGHT AND HAPPY TURKEY EATING.