ranting
well thanks kids for deciding that you're the "core group" and that i obviously dont count for anything or can handle anything.
newsflash: im the same age as you i am NOT a baby.
i dont like being on the outside looking in-- i dont enjoy it, i dont want to be this way.
i dont think that you understand how this feels, or that the last time i felt like this was when one friend moved and the other stopped talking to me. so now i have you guys and i dont like being left out. you guys always say how much you love me, but do you mean it?? i hate when you guys hang out and just dont bother telling me-- even worse is when we do hang out and no one even bothers to clue me in on whatever little inside joke or big happening, so i sit there and dont say anything.
IS ANYONE EVEN LISTENING? NO ONE LISTENS ANYWAY SO ITS NO USE EVEN SAYING ANYMORE.
NO MATTER HOW FUCKING HARD I TRY IT JUST KEEPS COMING OUT THIS WAY.
i quit? but then where to go?? there isnt anywhere because no one likes me enough to take me in.
newsflash: im the same age as you i am NOT a baby.
i dont like being on the outside looking in-- i dont enjoy it, i dont want to be this way.
i dont think that you understand how this feels, or that the last time i felt like this was when one friend moved and the other stopped talking to me. so now i have you guys and i dont like being left out. you guys always say how much you love me, but do you mean it?? i hate when you guys hang out and just dont bother telling me-- even worse is when we do hang out and no one even bothers to clue me in on whatever little inside joke or big happening, so i sit there and dont say anything.
IS ANYONE EVEN LISTENING? NO ONE LISTENS ANYWAY SO ITS NO USE EVEN SAYING ANYMORE.
NO MATTER HOW FUCKING HARD I TRY IT JUST KEEPS COMING OUT THIS WAY.
i quit? but then where to go?? there isnt anywhere because no one likes me enough to take me in.