Its funny how....
When I finally decide to do something for myself for once I get called selfish. That alone coming from someone I really care so much about used to be enough to confuse me to the point where I couldn't be sure as to who I really want. But I think I finally get it now, when I first left him for someone else I only came back to him because I care too much about him to see him hurt and giving himself to some slut who didn't deserve him. Sometimes I wonder if he went to her on purpose, I bet he did so I could do something about it.
He may think I don't love him now for not listening but he doesn't know. I love and always will love him in a way that I will always care for him and wish him the best life can offer even if it can't be me. I don't know why he thinks I'm so great when I hurt him so many times, I don't deserve him. He's done so much for me and all I've done in return was throw him his heart back in pieces.
Anyway, enough of that...My arms and shoulders are killing me. I went to the mall yesterday and ended up buying one of those "As seen on TV" products out of skeptism. The box had to weigh at least 100 pounds and occassionally I had to stop walking towards the bus stop to rest my arms. Thank God the bus was right there by the time I got there. Once I got home I ended up spending about 4 hours trying to assemble everything which wasn't easy at all; then again I'm an idiot so who knows.
He may think I don't love him now for not listening but he doesn't know. I love and always will love him in a way that I will always care for him and wish him the best life can offer even if it can't be me. I don't know why he thinks I'm so great when I hurt him so many times, I don't deserve him. He's done so much for me and all I've done in return was throw him his heart back in pieces.
Anyway, enough of that...My arms and shoulders are killing me. I went to the mall yesterday and ended up buying one of those "As seen on TV" products out of skeptism. The box had to weigh at least 100 pounds and occassionally I had to stop walking towards the bus stop to rest my arms. Thank God the bus was right there by the time I got there. Once I got home I ended up spending about 4 hours trying to assemble everything which wasn't easy at all; then again I'm an idiot so who knows.