crap...
not having a car fucking sux... they said that it should be done by monday... man i hope so hitching a ride to work sucks. though i dont know i think i might continue to take the bus to school everyday... its cheaper than driving and paying for parking and on top of that it makes me get up on time because i have to catch my bus... either who though i think that the whole walking around thing is helping a bit... it gives me time to think and reflect on my life to this point... though i still have not changed my mind about my life upto this point it still sux. its getting better but it still sux. i dont think the anti depressants are helping at all. they just make me lose large portions of time. like i black out for like 3 or 4 hours and wake up in different places. so far i havent gone anywhere outside of my apartment but i had a wierd dream that i woke up in some place id never been with blood on my hands... it was disturbing at best. i think my brain is the devils vacation spot. and the ants arent getting any smaller. im still convinced that they are an extension of my crazy... ehhh oh well.