Wanna know a secret?
I have no fucking idea where I'm going to school next year.
I applied to UConn and Goucher. I got accepted to both. Since I spent two years at Fordham, I got to complete the Jesuit Core, which is basically WAY more required courses than you'd have to take at any other school. Because of this, I'm probably going to be behind when I transfer.
UConn was my first choice. I'd be around friends, I'd be closer to Mike for once, and I'd get a good degree. One major flaw: I didn't get accepted for the right major. I want to major in Computer Science, but I got accepted for my second choice, which was Sociology. As much as I would love to major in Sociology, that degree will not help me in anything I want to do.
I can try to switch into the School of Engineering at UConn, but I'd have to do everything perfectly. I'd need to take some chemistry courses, some calculus courses, and a few others... but I'm terrible at chemistry. I'd also need a 3.0 to get into the School of Engineering, so if I manage to screw up in chemistry, which is a major possibility, I have to waste a semester taking courses for Sociology instead of Computer Science. Basically, if I mess up at all, I could be in college for five (or more) years to get a degree that should only take four years. The idea of being in school for six years makes me kind of angry, because that means the two years I've spent being miserable basically won't matter.
Goucher has always been one of my favorite colleges, from the time I visited it before senior year. It has the most gorgeous campus and the people are so different and fun. It's a tiny school, so the staff knows everyone. I got accepted when I applied the first time too, but I didn't go for some reason. I visited again in January so I could have an interview and another tour/info session, just so I could be sure. I loved it again, but for some reason, I still wanted UConn more (even though I don't actually LIKE UConn's campus or anything, it's just more convenient).
In contrast to UConn, Goucher is in Baltimore (about four hours away from home) and I don't know anyone there. However, they accepted me for the correct major. The Computer Science department at Goucher is really really small. Normally, that'd seem kind of bad to me, but I'm thinking it might be a good thing; I need help getting up to date, so having professors and administrators that know me would probably be really helpful. Also, Goucher sent me the nicest acceptance letter I've ever read (it wasn't their standard one, I'm positive).
So basically, here are my choices:
I'm leaning toward choice #2. I'm pretty sure I need to suck it up and go to Goucher. I've always loved it, but I keep second-guessing myself for some reason. I need to get over my fear of being in an unfamiliar environment. I'd be all alone at Goucher, but I have a feeling that I'd end up being less alone than I am at Fordham now.
I know I barely ever update, but if anyone on my friends list wants to give me ANY input, I'd really appreciate it.
I applied to UConn and Goucher. I got accepted to both. Since I spent two years at Fordham, I got to complete the Jesuit Core, which is basically WAY more required courses than you'd have to take at any other school. Because of this, I'm probably going to be behind when I transfer.
UConn was my first choice. I'd be around friends, I'd be closer to Mike for once, and I'd get a good degree. One major flaw: I didn't get accepted for the right major. I want to major in Computer Science, but I got accepted for my second choice, which was Sociology. As much as I would love to major in Sociology, that degree will not help me in anything I want to do.
I can try to switch into the School of Engineering at UConn, but I'd have to do everything perfectly. I'd need to take some chemistry courses, some calculus courses, and a few others... but I'm terrible at chemistry. I'd also need a 3.0 to get into the School of Engineering, so if I manage to screw up in chemistry, which is a major possibility, I have to waste a semester taking courses for Sociology instead of Computer Science. Basically, if I mess up at all, I could be in college for five (or more) years to get a degree that should only take four years. The idea of being in school for six years makes me kind of angry, because that means the two years I've spent being miserable basically won't matter.
Goucher has always been one of my favorite colleges, from the time I visited it before senior year. It has the most gorgeous campus and the people are so different and fun. It's a tiny school, so the staff knows everyone. I got accepted when I applied the first time too, but I didn't go for some reason. I visited again in January so I could have an interview and another tour/info session, just so I could be sure. I loved it again, but for some reason, I still wanted UConn more (even though I don't actually LIKE UConn's campus or anything, it's just more convenient).
In contrast to UConn, Goucher is in Baltimore (about four hours away from home) and I don't know anyone there. However, they accepted me for the correct major. The Computer Science department at Goucher is really really small. Normally, that'd seem kind of bad to me, but I'm thinking it might be a good thing; I need help getting up to date, so having professors and administrators that know me would probably be really helpful. Also, Goucher sent me the nicest acceptance letter I've ever read (it wasn't their standard one, I'm positive).
So basically, here are my choices:
- Go to UConn, TRY to major in Computer Science - take required courses over the summer, attempt to get into the School of Engineering with no help whatsoever from the school; possibly stay in school for 5+ years, possibly not be able to change major
- Go to Goucher, major in Computer Science - catch up on courses, be at a school that actually cares if I accomplish what I want; probably finish school in 4 years, maybe a little longer
- Go to UConn, major in Sociology - this isn't really an option I'm considering. It'd be the easiest, major-wise and school-wise, but I think it would be a poor life decision to settle for a major I don't want just so I can go to a school that feels like a "safe" choice.
- Stay at Fordham - I wouldn't be behind, but I really can't stand it here. I know I need to consider this option, but I think I won't really ever forgive myself for giving in and staying.
I'm leaning toward choice #2. I'm pretty sure I need to suck it up and go to Goucher. I've always loved it, but I keep second-guessing myself for some reason. I need to get over my fear of being in an unfamiliar environment. I'd be all alone at Goucher, but I have a feeling that I'd end up being less alone than I am at Fordham now.
I know I barely ever update, but if anyone on my friends list wants to give me ANY input, I'd really appreciate it.