[IC] Mistletoe continuations/new threads

[borncaptain]

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[mind_over_metal]

[from here]

*conceding a point, partway*

You would know that already, but sometimes it's also good to be said.

[goddamnemperor]

What's the difference?

[mind_over_metal]

I've been informed in the past that it's a rather important one. Experience seems to support that assertion.

[goddamnemperor]

It changes nothing for me.

[mind_over_metal]

Then allow me to say it for myself.

[goddamnemperor]

I'm not one of your misguided children. Why are you here? What do you hope to achieve with me? Make no mistake. I know your intentions might be pure of motive, but not always pure of pride.

[mind_over_metal]

Well, I'm in this specific location at this moment in time because I would rather not be... elsewhere.

More generally... I have no agenda with you, Leto. I want certain things, yes, because I care about what happens to you. But I have no goals to achieve, no benchmarks to reach. Sometimes I just can't leave well enough alone.

[goddamnemperor]

Ah, another fight.

Empathy. I never understood it.

[mind_over_metal]

*asking with simple curiosity*

Why not?

[goddamnemperor]

It is difficult to ... relate. I was born into full consciousness, my memories and feelings existing before understanding. And not simply that, it was the memories of billions of people who came before me.

How to separate how I am from everyone else? You had formed your own identity when you were young. But pre-born have no such chance. It's what killed my aunt, in the end.

[mind_over_metal]

And yet still with such kindness. That you're able to be as you are now is amazing.

[goddamnemperor]

I got by, barely. It helped that Ghani was kinder. She balanced me out.

[mind_over_metal]

Rare is the one who hasn't gotten help from somewhere.

[goddamnemperor]

True. But we are not as we were before. Our connection, what made us one is gone. I severed that on purpose.

[mind_over_metal]

But what have you learned from her and can take with you beyond that?

[goddamnemperor]

Learned? We were the same person. There's nothing I could have taught her or vice-versa. Every memory of mine was hers.

I cannot take her. I cannot make her eternal.