then one day in summer I changed my number to cut my line
There are so many things about myself I wish I could change that I can't, or things that aren't changing fast enough for my taste. There are a lot of things about myself I dislike.
So it's important when I'm feeling proud of an achievement, even if it's only a perceived one, that I note it. I'm proud that I'm no longer afraid to just say exactly what I want to, right to the person who needs to hear it. It's not for them or anyone else, it's for me. I think I got really good at doing what I honestly wanted to do and saying whatever I really felt this summer. It's a step in the direction of no longer living my life for anyone else.
I'm tired of being that person who's so busying thinking about possible outcomes that she never gets up and does.
In the past few days I just booked myself on a flight to Miami simply because I wanted to go. I told people who I'd fallen out of favor with how I really felt about them, regardless of how they ended up taking it. I booked tickets to the US Open because I'd never been there before and always wanted to go see a game. I voiced an opinion about friends I currently have without hiding behind ambiguity or downplaying the potentcy of feelings. I started seriously reading, researching, and making decisions about my academic and professional future. I let a guy I love in on everything; not just some parts, everything.
Maybe I don't have to go to England to have this time in my life be a major turning point.
So it's important when I'm feeling proud of an achievement, even if it's only a perceived one, that I note it. I'm proud that I'm no longer afraid to just say exactly what I want to, right to the person who needs to hear it. It's not for them or anyone else, it's for me. I think I got really good at doing what I honestly wanted to do and saying whatever I really felt this summer. It's a step in the direction of no longer living my life for anyone else.
I'm tired of being that person who's so busying thinking about possible outcomes that she never gets up and does.
In the past few days I just booked myself on a flight to Miami simply because I wanted to go. I told people who I'd fallen out of favor with how I really felt about them, regardless of how they ended up taking it. I booked tickets to the US Open because I'd never been there before and always wanted to go see a game. I voiced an opinion about friends I currently have without hiding behind ambiguity or downplaying the potentcy of feelings. I started seriously reading, researching, and making decisions about my academic and professional future. I let a guy I love in on everything; not just some parts, everything.
Maybe I don't have to go to England to have this time in my life be a major turning point.