out for blood
who do you think you are?
ha ha ha, bless your soul
you think you're in control
I try so hard in my life to be peaceful. I consider myself the ultimate pacifist. If you hit me, I would do my best not to reduce myself to hitting you back ((barring self defense of course)). I try to live above the influence to fight or be angry or seek retribution. I'm successful less than half the time, probably. But for a human being I'd say that's about as good as you can get.
But I completely lose my entire self when someone attacks the people I love in any way. When someone threatens the happiness or well-being of the most important people in my life, I am out for blood immediately. I become judge, jury, and executioner. A lot of people would consider it noble, but I know it's a flaw.
If I live up to the moral and spiritual standards I've set for myself, I wouldn't get involved. But anyone who knows me will tell you I absolutely get involved. I often get too involved. I "make other people's problems my problems". It's true. It comes from a place of love and loyalty, but that doesn't justify it.
Sometimes I just can't help it. You can come after me all you want and I'll resist, but go after one of them and I'll make you wish you'd never been born. I come out with a fire and a fury most people have never seen in me. It's not like I think they can't defend themselves; I just get worked up into such a frenzied state when I think of anyone trying to hurt, hassle, anger, or upset someone I love. They don't deserve it ((usually... heh)). And it makes me want to ring that person's selfish little neck. God help me, if you do it, I will make you regret that decision more than anything in your pathetic little life. So just don't. And anyone who thinks I don't have the resources to do such a thing will find out much too late that I absolutely positively do, and that I'm painfully creative when it comes to laying waste to your life. Just a thought.....
I'm sorry for thinking that way, for being that person, but right now I am.
Anyhoo, don't let that be an indicator of anything. I was musing on it today. I've been not so much with the musings lately, eh? I think I've finally figured out that the cure for overthinking everything is to be doing so much that you don't have time to analyze it all. I love to write, but I love more when I'm so busy living my life that I have a lot less time to write about it. Or anything, for that matter. But I've been listening to great tunes, reading AMAZING books, and getting some really stellar ideas for my screenplay, which I absolutely need to get onto paper.
Things are looking good on many fronts, just as I predicted. This certainly was a hugely wonderful change in the wind.
I should be doing a million other things, so I'm off.
ha ha ha, bless your soul
you think you're in control
I try so hard in my life to be peaceful. I consider myself the ultimate pacifist. If you hit me, I would do my best not to reduce myself to hitting you back ((barring self defense of course)). I try to live above the influence to fight or be angry or seek retribution. I'm successful less than half the time, probably. But for a human being I'd say that's about as good as you can get.
But I completely lose my entire self when someone attacks the people I love in any way. When someone threatens the happiness or well-being of the most important people in my life, I am out for blood immediately. I become judge, jury, and executioner. A lot of people would consider it noble, but I know it's a flaw.
If I live up to the moral and spiritual standards I've set for myself, I wouldn't get involved. But anyone who knows me will tell you I absolutely get involved. I often get too involved. I "make other people's problems my problems". It's true. It comes from a place of love and loyalty, but that doesn't justify it.
Sometimes I just can't help it. You can come after me all you want and I'll resist, but go after one of them and I'll make you wish you'd never been born. I come out with a fire and a fury most people have never seen in me. It's not like I think they can't defend themselves; I just get worked up into such a frenzied state when I think of anyone trying to hurt, hassle, anger, or upset someone I love. They don't deserve it ((usually... heh)). And it makes me want to ring that person's selfish little neck. God help me, if you do it, I will make you regret that decision more than anything in your pathetic little life. So just don't. And anyone who thinks I don't have the resources to do such a thing will find out much too late that I absolutely positively do, and that I'm painfully creative when it comes to laying waste to your life. Just a thought.....
I'm sorry for thinking that way, for being that person, but right now I am.
Anyhoo, don't let that be an indicator of anything. I was musing on it today. I've been not so much with the musings lately, eh? I think I've finally figured out that the cure for overthinking everything is to be doing so much that you don't have time to analyze it all. I love to write, but I love more when I'm so busy living my life that I have a lot less time to write about it. Or anything, for that matter. But I've been listening to great tunes, reading AMAZING books, and getting some really stellar ideas for my screenplay, which I absolutely need to get onto paper.
Things are looking good on many fronts, just as I predicted. This certainly was a hugely wonderful change in the wind.
I should be doing a million other things, so I'm off.