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[bornagirl]

daddy bought me a laptop. i think hes tring to buy me happiness so i get out of my depression. hes really sweet, and will do anything for me. i just hate how he keeps wanting me to eat. im not gona. you know im not. my therapist says i will get real thin and pass out and be in the hospital. i dont care. i guess i want that to happen

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[one_heartbeat_]

Listen, I'm going to tell you all of this, because I do, actually, understand what you are going through.

Depression is shit, and during depression you will enjoy being alone. People will tend to bug and/or scare the shit out of you, because you feel betrayed by each and everyone of them.

However,

That is no reason for you not to eat, and that is no reason for you to basically kill yourself. Listen, everynight, I get emotional breakdowns, as you've probably read in my journal, but what I don't write is that I cut and overdose. Luckily, my parents haven't found out yet, and I plan on keeping it that way. But, what I do is not right. Killing myself and hurting myself isn't going to make things any better. And going to a mental place isn't going to make it any better either.

You claim to not like people, but you'll fucking die without them, just like people will die without you. I ran away from home once, thinking that I didn't want anybody around me. After a few fucking days, I was sick of being alone. It only made things worse. Knowing there were people around made me feel a lot better.

You can still be alone and enjoy being alone. I'm alone a lot-most of the time, I coop myself up in my room until the weekend. But to kill yourself over depression isn't right.

Please, you need to eat and not do anything stupid. It'll be better in the long end. Life was meant to be shitty so that afterwards we'll have something better. Just live life, and be happy. The only reason you're unhappy is because you let yourself think that.

I do care, even though I don't know you well, and I want you to get better. Please, don't do this. If you ever need me, IM me: ibroke the stick. Or e-mail me: rollwithmelons88@aol.com

♥ Sarah

[bornagirl]

wow doll, i told my therapist i wouldnt kill myself, its just that i think it would be an interesting experience at western psyche. there are a few people there, i mean you share a room. also, your parents will find out you cut. mine did, and i didnt believe it was possible, oh yeah, it is. i dont know what to say, thanks for your concern love <333

[one_heartbeat_]

Anytime. Eh, with my parents, and all, I doubt they will. My father is never home, and my mother doesn't have any suspicion. I'm doing pretty well...I haven't cut in a while...but that may change, soon. :/

<3