The demons in my head are talking to me!! AHH
Holy crap...i just remembered the horrible nightmare i had last night. It seemed SOOOO real it's scary. It had someone very important to me in it, and if something like this EVER happens to this person i will die! I was hanging out w/ friends and i recieved a phone call from this someone's brother, informing me that this special person in my life had died. I thought it was a joke and started yelling at him. But then he was like, i'm so serious Deborah, he's dead. He was climbing a tree to get our cat out and fell onto his car and the antenna went through him. (ahh, worst mental picture i will EVER have) I didn't know how i was going to tell you, but i don't know what to do. You have to fly out and everything. I hung up and flipped out. I cried and never stopped. And the bitchy ass part of it was that no-one else seemed to care that this person in my life had died, so that pissed me off. I couldn't get over it, i didn't believe it was true. Yikes!! I then woke up and was freaked out! This scares me to my inner core b/c i have lost TOO many friends (suicide, car wrecks, beaten to death) and i can't lose another!!! I just want to let this person know they mean the world to me and i can't get over how real this was to me and how freaked i am!!!!!! AHHH, why do we have nightmares?!! I think just to torment us and just pray that they NEVER come true.