they dont love you like i love you

[born_to_fail]

well, at the moment it looks like im not going on leavers. sorry guys.
i just got an increase in medication, and its not smart to be drinking whilst on it...
my psychologist and mum are very reluctant to let me go down there on my own for the whole week.
i dont even know if i can. im too scared.
i know you guys will say i have my friends down there.. but i really need someone to look after me at the moment, however pathetic that may sound.
the best scenario at the moment is me and my mum staying with a friend in margs, and coming to the park to visit.
this sucks.
you fucked up everything.

dont know if i can go to sydney anymore either. im too unstable atm to be able to leave home for 4 days without my parents. we will have to wait and see. i hope i can get better in time. bcos i would hate to miss it.

missed my TEE exams. not doing them. organisations have been made to get my TER from my school marks, which i am happy with.

i am so tired. i cant do anything anymore. i cant do this anymore. ive shut off.

like salt in an open wound