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First day of work today. I worked in the Posters, Tee shirts , Pipe shop and the Novelty side of the store. It was pretty fun, I did inventory and shit... haha It wasn't too fun, but it kept me busy.
After work I drove Kaile and Megan home, KAte accompained me. We went in Megan's place and watched fuckin' Clarissa Explains it all on VHS. haha it was pretty silly.
Kate and I left, and went back to lil'5 Pizza, we talked and shit. I'll come back to the talking stuff. Then we went to sacred heart for a second and then I came home. It was a good day.
Ok so Kate and I got to talking and it wasn't a really deep convorsation or anything, but it got me thinking. Well what doesn't make me think these days. haha
But like I realise how much I long for effection, not like hooking up shit. I mean like a relationship and such. But I'm not looking becuase I know all it will do is fuck me over once more. But that sence of being wanted and needed is still there... I want to be loved, I give so much, yet I have no one to show what kind of love I want to give... I dunno... I'm just a retard when it comes to love really... Mehhh. Like it's my most favorite season right now and it's cold and the bundle up type weather and snuggle weather... But I have no on to do it with... It makes me feel lonely in a way... I dunno. Gahhh I need love but I don't know how to get it or where to find it, all I can do is live and pray that it comes to me...
10 4
Dagger
After work I drove Kaile and Megan home, KAte accompained me. We went in Megan's place and watched fuckin' Clarissa Explains it all on VHS. haha it was pretty silly.
Kate and I left, and went back to lil'5 Pizza, we talked and shit. I'll come back to the talking stuff. Then we went to sacred heart for a second and then I came home. It was a good day.
Ok so Kate and I got to talking and it wasn't a really deep convorsation or anything, but it got me thinking. Well what doesn't make me think these days. haha
But like I realise how much I long for effection, not like hooking up shit. I mean like a relationship and such. But I'm not looking becuase I know all it will do is fuck me over once more. But that sence of being wanted and needed is still there... I want to be loved, I give so much, yet I have no one to show what kind of love I want to give... I dunno... I'm just a retard when it comes to love really... Mehhh. Like it's my most favorite season right now and it's cold and the bundle up type weather and snuggle weather... But I have no on to do it with... It makes me feel lonely in a way... I dunno. Gahhh I need love but I don't know how to get it or where to find it, all I can do is live and pray that it comes to me...
10 4
Dagger