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I've been thinking about being a big sister in the "Big Brother, Big Sister" program after I graduate in the summer. I've been feeling the increasing need to be more active outside of my home. Another thing I thought about doing is baby holding at TMH. That would be a lot of fun :-).
I've been being very thoughtful this week (I analyze everything usually anyways but more so at around this time every month) and how I really need to take a step back from life and taking things so seriously. I've been looking at my realtionships with other people and right now I guess I'm in a self protective mode. Eric's mad at me because I promised to go to a dinner he had and didn't show up; never mind the fact that the reason I didn't go is because my grandmother was having a birthday party and I ran her all over town all day and took my parents all over town too and at the end of the day I was too tired to do anything but sleep. I was disappointed in his reaction too because, while I expected him to be mad, I didn't know that it would be to the extent that he isn't speaking to me right now. I'm starting to think that the thing to do is to expect less from people and so when they do something that's hurtful, I'm not as hurt as I could have been. That seems to be working with some people( a little) and I don't mean anyone in particular. It seems kinda sad though. not holding people to a certain potential, but at this point it seems like the easiest thing to do
I've been being very thoughtful this week (I analyze everything usually anyways but more so at around this time every month) and how I really need to take a step back from life and taking things so seriously. I've been looking at my realtionships with other people and right now I guess I'm in a self protective mode. Eric's mad at me because I promised to go to a dinner he had and didn't show up; never mind the fact that the reason I didn't go is because my grandmother was having a birthday party and I ran her all over town all day and took my parents all over town too and at the end of the day I was too tired to do anything but sleep. I was disappointed in his reaction too because, while I expected him to be mad, I didn't know that it would be to the extent that he isn't speaking to me right now. I'm starting to think that the thing to do is to expect less from people and so when they do something that's hurtful, I'm not as hurt as I could have been. That seems to be working with some people( a little) and I don't mean anyone in particular. It seems kinda sad though. not holding people to a certain potential, but at this point it seems like the easiest thing to do