stand in the rain.

[born_a_xunicorn]

its really scary when a person who is really close to you keeps getting into car accidents. and when you are in one of them. none of them are his fault, just something in the atmosphere is warning him not to drive. and everytime i know hes driving i get really worried. i hope the cards unfold and turn around, because i can't watch over him as much as i would like. im just so scared for him, and his life.

last night when i was walking in the rain through downtown newburyport, i looked inside a house. i always pass this house and wonder about the people that live there. so last night they were having a party, and when they opened the door to greet people, it was such a happy moment. i suddenly wished i was accross the street ringing that chirping doorbell. it reminded me of the past, when i would go to the "family" parties in kennebunk, even though we werent related. when katie and i would be the youngest kids there, and we would watch all the grown ups and giggle. i miss that, i always looked forward to those days, when we were the youngest, but we were involved with all these people. smart, gorgeous, happy people for one night. i want that back.

but im happy i have my friends and i know a certain few will be there forever. so thank you for being there for me, and just sitting with me in silence. it means everything to me. love to all. ♥♥