Complications
SuperBowl weekend was cool...
I went to my uncle's house and had Stewart with me. It's awesome to
finally go to a family members' house and not be nagged at or not
trusted. Stewart and I were alone in the field, examining the
planets (that were visible) and the stars... it was a magical moment
between bestfriends I think. After a while we got bored and played man
hunt 1 on 1... I caught him 3 times he caught me once *I am a beast at
man hunt*. later we took a couple of pictures (featured below).
pictures he took of me
Us
I look like shiet
Tell Betty I say Hi.
Valentines day:
Useless crap holiday created by men.... one day in the year where they're allowed to make up for all their damn sins throughout the past and you have to forgive them...ack I still don't like the holiday after so many years.
Sometimes you fall in love with all the wrong people, or too many people. I know this one guy, poor kid. He's inlove with these two chicks one is his girlfriend and the other is his girlfriends bestfriend... and he's torn between the two. I mean you should see this guy is all sad and throwing fake smiles all over the place, pushing his girlfriend away gently, disappearing when she's laughing and playing around with her chick friends, he'll look over at the bestfriend. (after a week of studying him I see it clearly, dunno about anyone else.) Does his girlfriend not see he has the look of longing in his eyes, but it's not for her? How he takes glances of the other girl if even for a second, it's sufficient.
Poor kid, not too long ago the girl got back with her ex. Jesus, when he saw them comming to great his girlfriend I think the deterioration of his heart was noticeable. You can BARELY notice the grip around his girlfriends waist loosens and then tightens a bit, his smile suddenly gone and manages nothing but a grin for the rest of lunch.
He IMed me earlier, and showed me what he told the girl (not his girlfriend), it's sad really... I mean, well, look.
HIM: argh!
HIM: this girl
HIM: ahhh
HIM: she pisses me the fuck off
Me: who?
HIM: Our best friend (me & Steph‘s [GIRLFRIENDS NAME EDITED])
HIM: wants to directly connect (6:31:24 PM).
Me is now directly connected (6:31:24 PM).
HIM: ok I started off by IMing her saying
Hey can you do me a big favor?
her: sure
me: Don't lead me on anymore
and from there.......
HER: lol...really, u think im leading you on.
Her: u think it doesnt cause me pain
Her: u swear that watching u with Steph is easy
Her: ure the one thats lead me on
Her: ure right, its hard to love someone that will not love me back
ME: oh, yeah... cause you know... it's easy to break up with someone after knowing them for _ years and dating them for _ yrs and something months, right?
her: im sure its not
ME: How have I led you on?
Her: but goddammit, ive seen it for exactly that long
Her :because ure never going to break up with her
her: and you know it
ME: why do you think that?
ME: I'm here breaking my head finding a good time to which I should break up... and how to do it, and then you come up with this guy next to you
Her: yeah, ure right, im not worth it.
ME: wtf
ME: you come up with the most outrageous conclusions!
Her: i always do the same thing, dont wurry about it.
ME: I'm not worried
ME: ... I don't even know why I fucking try anything with you
ME: agh
Her: im sorry, ure right, i have to do something about myself.
ME: what do you mean
Her: dont wurry, i always hurt people
Her: i dont want to hurt anyone
Her: and i am constantly doing it
Her: i feel i have hurt so many people today
Her: i just, i cant take it
ME: so what are you going to do about it?
Her: i dont know
ME: So how many other people have you hurt today?
Her: im so sorry _name Edited_
Her: ive hurt (Names edited, there were 5) tons of other chicks i dont know, and you
ME: how did you hurt the girls?
Her: by taking *Edited* again
Her: shit, and i just hurt *edited*.
Her: fuck man
Her: thats it, i have to do something about it
ME: w/e
ME: are you happy now that you have him?
Her: im sorry *edited*, i dont know if im happy, i dont know if ill ever be happy
Her: i should just give up on happiness
Her: its momentary to me
ME: No it's not
Her: im sorry *edited*, im sorry
ME: Why are you saying sorry so many times? I got it the first time.
Her: i dont know, im just sorry
ME: w/e man
ME: for a minute I actually thought you cared though... which was what hurt the most
Her: *edited*, i love you, i really do
ME: there's my heart falling into pieces again... I don't wanna finish eating anymore
Her: fuck *edited*, i swear to GOD that i fucking do, do u want me to break up with Him
her: is that what u need, ill do it
ME: No, fuck it
ME: Are you with him for yourself or for him?
Her: for myself
ME: ok then, happy life I grant you two
Red is the guy, The girlfriend is steph, but the bestfriend is "her" I highlighted in grey, I'm the green one...
Like I've said before, Valentines Day sucks.... and It hurts most when you love someone who can't love you back...
peace my loves.
pictures he took of me
Us
I look like shiet
Tell Betty I say Hi.
Valentines day:
Useless crap holiday created by men.... one day in the year where they're allowed to make up for all their damn sins throughout the past and you have to forgive them...ack I still don't like the holiday after so many years.
Sometimes you fall in love with all the wrong people, or too many people. I know this one guy, poor kid. He's inlove with these two chicks one is his girlfriend and the other is his girlfriends bestfriend... and he's torn between the two. I mean you should see this guy is all sad and throwing fake smiles all over the place, pushing his girlfriend away gently, disappearing when she's laughing and playing around with her chick friends, he'll look over at the bestfriend. (after a week of studying him I see it clearly, dunno about anyone else.) Does his girlfriend not see he has the look of longing in his eyes, but it's not for her? How he takes glances of the other girl if even for a second, it's sufficient.
Poor kid, not too long ago the girl got back with her ex. Jesus, when he saw them comming to great his girlfriend I think the deterioration of his heart was noticeable. You can BARELY notice the grip around his girlfriends waist loosens and then tightens a bit, his smile suddenly gone and manages nothing but a grin for the rest of lunch.
He IMed me earlier, and showed me what he told the girl (not his girlfriend), it's sad really... I mean, well, look.
HIM: argh!
HIM: this girl
HIM: ahhh
HIM: she pisses me the fuck off
Me: who?
HIM: Our best friend (me & Steph‘s [GIRLFRIENDS NAME EDITED])
HIM: wants to directly connect (6:31:24 PM).
Me is now directly connected (6:31:24 PM).
HIM: ok I started off by IMing her saying
Hey can you do me a big favor?
her: sure
me: Don't lead me on anymore
and from there.......
HER: lol...really, u think im leading you on.
Her: u think it doesnt cause me pain
Her: u swear that watching u with Steph is easy
Her: ure the one thats lead me on
Her: ure right, its hard to love someone that will not love me back
ME: oh, yeah... cause you know... it's easy to break up with someone after knowing them for _ years and dating them for _ yrs and something months, right?
her: im sure its not
ME: How have I led you on?
Her: but goddammit, ive seen it for exactly that long
Her :because ure never going to break up with her
her: and you know it
ME: why do you think that?
ME: I'm here breaking my head finding a good time to which I should break up... and how to do it, and then you come up with this guy next to you
Her: yeah, ure right, im not worth it.
ME: wtf
ME: you come up with the most outrageous conclusions!
Her: i always do the same thing, dont wurry about it.
ME: I'm not worried
ME: ... I don't even know why I fucking try anything with you
ME: agh
Her: im sorry, ure right, i have to do something about myself.
ME: what do you mean
Her: dont wurry, i always hurt people
Her: i dont want to hurt anyone
Her: and i am constantly doing it
Her: i feel i have hurt so many people today
Her: i just, i cant take it
ME: so what are you going to do about it?
Her: i dont know
ME: So how many other people have you hurt today?
Her: im so sorry _name Edited_
Her: ive hurt (Names edited, there were 5) tons of other chicks i dont know, and you
ME: how did you hurt the girls?
Her: by taking *Edited* again
Her: shit, and i just hurt *edited*.
Her: fuck man
Her: thats it, i have to do something about it
ME: w/e
ME: are you happy now that you have him?
Her: im sorry *edited*, i dont know if im happy, i dont know if ill ever be happy
Her: i should just give up on happiness
Her: its momentary to me
ME: No it's not
Her: im sorry *edited*, im sorry
ME: Why are you saying sorry so many times? I got it the first time.
Her: i dont know, im just sorry
ME: w/e man
ME: for a minute I actually thought you cared though... which was what hurt the most
Her: *edited*, i love you, i really do
ME: there's my heart falling into pieces again... I don't wanna finish eating anymore
Her: fuck *edited*, i swear to GOD that i fucking do, do u want me to break up with Him
her: is that what u need, ill do it
ME: No, fuck it
ME: Are you with him for yourself or for him?
Her: for myself
ME: ok then, happy life I grant you two
Red is the guy, The girlfriend is steph, but the bestfriend is "her" I highlighted in grey, I'm the green one...
Like I've said before, Valentines Day sucks.... and It hurts most when you love someone who can't love you back...
peace my loves.