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[born2die_34]

hey okay... my parents are trying really hard to understand me... which is a good thing i guess... so i was thinkin maybe i could show them a poem...

*I'll Show You Me*

With this razor

In my hand

I'm trying to make you

Understand

All the pain

That you can't see

And all the pain

Locked up in me

What you don't know

Is how it feels

But I know that

This pain is real

These memories are still there

Everywhere I look

I try to stop

Reading into it

But I can't shut the book

Trying to set

All this pain free

I imagine my wrist

But it's my heart that bleeds

So with this razor

In my heart

I begin to fall apart

I break down

And start to cry

I don't really

Want to die

I'm so scared

For my life

And I'm so scarred

From his knife

Scars in my heart

But it's on the mend

I'm smiling on the outside

But I'm breaking down again

Trying to hide

All of it from you

Trying to be perfect

But if only you knew

Look Mommy!

Look what I can do!

I can be loving

Just like you!

I love myself

Can't you tell

I'm healing now

I'm doing well

I'm trying to show you

Who I can be

Everything within me

And I know that you can see

I'll show Daddy

And he'll finally love me for me

I'll show him

And he too will see

I'm still the girl

I was at one time

I just keep it hidden

Deep down inside

I'm no longer suicidal

Though the thought has crossed my mind

I'm starting to move forward

Leaving all of it behind

I won't change

Who I am

Though you want me to

I am who

I want to be

And I'm still shiney and new

You will find my heart

I promise

I'll show you the way

And even though

You hurt me

I love you

Anyway