Just another stitch in time
Everything keeps changing nothing seems to be the same. granted there is so much less drama this year. I have been very very stressed out latly. and i know it will continue through out the school year. I am trying to hard to be a good student, but i dont know how long i can keep it up, its wearing me down, making me sick. Ryan is worried for me because i am always sick. but there is nothing i can do about it. i have to do this.
If school isnt stressful enough i have colorguard weighing on my back. with the feuds i constantly have with the guard. I love them all to death really i do. and i would seriously take a bullet for every single one of them even though a lot of the time i bicker at them. Our show is progressivly getting better but it still needs a ton of work. my self included, i think i need to do so much to improve. but at the same time, my energy is dying. i hardly have any left by third period let alone enough to get me through gaurd. but i am trying. i really want our band to make state. but to do that every one needs to have pride in what we do. i love our guard. through thick and thin. i want yall to know that
And as if those things weren't enough to wear a person down, i am constantly striving to change my life, to become a better christian , which is hard to do without help in my opinion. i see people lose thier faith all the time, or say they have faith and then don't act it. i guess i used to be that way too. but i want that to change, Quest was difficult for me, it put a lot of questions and obsticles in my mind.
well i got to run
If school isnt stressful enough i have colorguard weighing on my back. with the feuds i constantly have with the guard. I love them all to death really i do. and i would seriously take a bullet for every single one of them even though a lot of the time i bicker at them. Our show is progressivly getting better but it still needs a ton of work. my self included, i think i need to do so much to improve. but at the same time, my energy is dying. i hardly have any left by third period let alone enough to get me through gaurd. but i am trying. i really want our band to make state. but to do that every one needs to have pride in what we do. i love our guard. through thick and thin. i want yall to know that
And as if those things weren't enough to wear a person down, i am constantly striving to change my life, to become a better christian , which is hard to do without help in my opinion. i see people lose thier faith all the time, or say they have faith and then don't act it. i guess i used to be that way too. but i want that to change, Quest was difficult for me, it put a lot of questions and obsticles in my mind.
well i got to run