May 25, 2005 22:45
If you only write what you want to remember and the way you want to remember it, how real are your memories? If I look back on my journal entries I won't remember an event as it really happened, only the way I wanted to remember it. And is this okay? Is it okay to knowingly alter my perception? Sometimes I will omit things in hopes of forgetting them and other times I will embellish in hopes of thinking it was better than it was. In the end I'm only fucking with myself because I will have no recollection of how things really were, I will only know what I wanted myself to know.