I need to get out of this house.
Oh my gosh, is all i have to say. I can't wait to get out of this house and go to college, i can't take this shit any longer. I want to get my own life and not be afraid anymore. I need to get over my fears and get away from my family they are driving me crazy. All i wanted to do was go to NYC for one day this summer since i'm stuck going to Connecticut for two damn weeks and now i can't even do that. I've been waiting to see "Wicked" for a year and both times my mom makes me freaking wait adn then we can't get tickets. She won't go into the city by herself with me and its so damn ridiculous. She wouldn't even let me buy seperate tickets in the theatre. It's not my damn fault she wouldn't let me buy $55 dollar tickets last month and now there are barely any tickets left at all. This is all i wanna do my god, so now i'm stuck at my grandparents the whole damn time while shes at a wedding and then my grandmother's stupid anniversary party that last freaking two days, one day ok lets just go out to dinner, no i have to meet all her church friends and do that whole fiasco to. GOD i wish i could just be left alone. I need to leave and i have no where to go. I'm trapped until August. My dad buds in like it's his business and just made the whole situation worse when he had no reason to even add in his two cents. He doesn't understand the arts.. he doesn't understand anything and im sick and tired and making everyone else happy. I don't want to do anything but act and sing.. period. Theres no escaping the urge to be in the spotlight, i'm sorry. I'm 18 and its not their life decision anymore.