"If I am lost for a day try to find me..."
"...if I don't come back then I won't look behind me."
I've been doing a lot of thinking over the past couple of weeks.
Not to mention A LOT has happened to me.
There's a quote that says "There comes a point in your life when you realize who matters, who never did, who won't anymore, and who always will. So don't worry about people from your past, there's a reason they didn't make it to your future."
Well, I think that that point in my life was today.
For those of you who will always matter, you should know who you are<3
Those of you who don't, you also know who you are.
And it's sad that people make such rash decisions to cut people out of their lives without looking at the whole picture, more than once, and really analyzing it.
I say if someone calls you a piece of shit and tells you that you are dead to them, they were NEVER your friend in the first place.
So thank you for making me realize that so that I don't have to waste my time anymore.
Being two-faced won't make you many friends.
You'll realize it at some point.
Everyone that has dropped me as a friend at some point realized it was a mistake and apologized to me.
If you ever decide to, it better be good and pretty damn convincing as to why I should ever accept you as a friend again.
I don't want you to think you get a whole entry all to yourself so now I will talk about something else.
I was planning on transferring back to Florida for my Sophomore year of college and so forth.
I don't think I want to anymore.
I really like what I have up there.
I'm so glad that I took a chance and moved there.
It took one miserable semester to realize that it was a good decision even if for a while I thought that it ruined my life.
College has changed me so much and for the better.
I have become a lot more mature and so much more independent.
I love how I can say what I want, be who I am, and not give a damn what people think of me.
If you like me, that's great!
And if you don't well, sorry but you're missing out.
I have also met amazing people, learned how to get around the city, and learned that procrastinating doesn't work in college.
I don't know if you've heard about how apparently I'm a backstabber.
But I'm pretty sure I have never stabbed anyone in the back.
If you think that that is your opinion.
In my opinion I try to be the best friend I can be.
If you don't want to be my friend, that's one less person I need to worry about.
I have a ton of other friends.
Your loss.
Some of this may seem like I'm a bit full of myself...but I'm speaking from experience and I'm just laying out the facts...
I'm tired of high school bull shit that people keep trying to pull me into and as said in Mean Girls, I want to suck all the poison out of my life.
I want things to be good again.
I want to go back to a time when things made sense and I was happy.
That is what I am going to do.
I'm not longer going to let the bad things get to me.
I'm going to brush them off, move on, and be happy.
These are the great things in my life right now:
My family
My true friends
My college
Boston
My new dorm
Being Maid of honor for my sisters wedding
Starting at Boston Ballet
Getting an agent
...just to name a couple.
Life is pretty good right now.
I'm finally going to turn it around.
I'm going to enjoy this semester knowing that I have people who love me in my new home
and my old one.
No one is going to bring me down.
Not this year.
Now that I got this out of the way, I can finally go to sleep.
"I am fairly agile
I can bend and not break
Or I can break and take it with a smile
And I am so resilient ."
I've been doing a lot of thinking over the past couple of weeks.
Not to mention A LOT has happened to me.
There's a quote that says "There comes a point in your life when you realize who matters, who never did, who won't anymore, and who always will. So don't worry about people from your past, there's a reason they didn't make it to your future."
Well, I think that that point in my life was today.
For those of you who will always matter, you should know who you are<3
Those of you who don't, you also know who you are.
And it's sad that people make such rash decisions to cut people out of their lives without looking at the whole picture, more than once, and really analyzing it.
I say if someone calls you a piece of shit and tells you that you are dead to them, they were NEVER your friend in the first place.
So thank you for making me realize that so that I don't have to waste my time anymore.
Being two-faced won't make you many friends.
You'll realize it at some point.
Everyone that has dropped me as a friend at some point realized it was a mistake and apologized to me.
If you ever decide to, it better be good and pretty damn convincing as to why I should ever accept you as a friend again.
I don't want you to think you get a whole entry all to yourself so now I will talk about something else.
I was planning on transferring back to Florida for my Sophomore year of college and so forth.
I don't think I want to anymore.
I really like what I have up there.
I'm so glad that I took a chance and moved there.
It took one miserable semester to realize that it was a good decision even if for a while I thought that it ruined my life.
College has changed me so much and for the better.
I have become a lot more mature and so much more independent.
I love how I can say what I want, be who I am, and not give a damn what people think of me.
If you like me, that's great!
And if you don't well, sorry but you're missing out.
I have also met amazing people, learned how to get around the city, and learned that procrastinating doesn't work in college.
I don't know if you've heard about how apparently I'm a backstabber.
But I'm pretty sure I have never stabbed anyone in the back.
If you think that that is your opinion.
In my opinion I try to be the best friend I can be.
If you don't want to be my friend, that's one less person I need to worry about.
I have a ton of other friends.
Your loss.
Some of this may seem like I'm a bit full of myself...but I'm speaking from experience and I'm just laying out the facts...
I'm tired of high school bull shit that people keep trying to pull me into and as said in Mean Girls, I want to suck all the poison out of my life.
I want things to be good again.
I want to go back to a time when things made sense and I was happy.
That is what I am going to do.
I'm not longer going to let the bad things get to me.
I'm going to brush them off, move on, and be happy.
These are the great things in my life right now:
My family
My true friends
My college
Boston
My new dorm
Being Maid of honor for my sisters wedding
Starting at Boston Ballet
Getting an agent
...just to name a couple.
Life is pretty good right now.
I'm finally going to turn it around.
I'm going to enjoy this semester knowing that I have people who love me in my new home
and my old one.
No one is going to bring me down.
Not this year.
Now that I got this out of the way, I can finally go to sleep.
"I am fairly agile
I can bend and not break
Or I can break and take it with a smile
And I am so resilient ."