**Waiting for truth**
Yea so... I'm really tired of dealing with people who aren't true friends. Who lie to me because they know I trust them to tell me the truth.
A few people are really two-faced lately and it gets on my nerves... either your my friend or your not, don't be different towards me around different people, because I don't change my face for anyone. I love you all, no matter who's around, and I expect the same in return.
Sometimes I feel I expect too much, because nothing ever is the way I feel it should be. But I know I deserve better from some people sometimes... because I am just a genuinally nice person, and there aren't many of those. I give without expecting anything in return, and I'm tired of it. People walk all over me... I want to be nice, but these people make it extremely hard on me. I'm brutally honest with everything I feel, and I want some of that honesty back, but I never get it. Instead I'm left to assume or observe, and usually my assumptions or observations are wrong, and they get me into trouble. So if I'm wrong about any of this I'm sorry... it's just what I've observed, and my intentions are not to piss anyone off... I just want true friends, not ones who just keep me around for amusement, because I've been down that road before, and it's not fun.
Thanks to those people who give just as much back.
And to those who don't, rethink who you're taking for granted... one day I won't be here... and that'll be the day when you really need me.
Ciao.
The last straw has been pulled
And I’m stuck here waiting for the truth
By all means try and shatter me
Nothing you can say will make me break
<333SuzyJew