wish i could fix everything....
i dont even know the last thing i wrote about but ill just start from today. well i missed a day of school already. i slept all day. i wore myself out really bad. like i havent slept more than 7 hours since like the second week of august. it just sucks because its my senior year and i dont have any time to do anything fun. and friday steves going to maryland and of course im not allowed to go and i think hes mad i know it sucks but i cant do anything about it they were acually thinking about letting me and then they remembereed that i'd have to wake up the next morning early for a football game. so basically i think everyones mad at me cause i've missed band for two days so hes pissed, i had to call off work tonight so kims pissed and i dont know i really wish i could just make everyone happy but i cant im tired. it makes me the most sad that i cant make steve happy anymore i dont know what to do i tried he says hes not mad but he sure seems it. i get to see him tomorrow i hope and maybe everything will be better. im pretty sure he still loves me. it just seems like everythingis messed up i want god damn dq to fucking close grr then ill have so much more time. so im gonna go try and eat food i hope everything gets better and steve i love you