The latest talk.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:32 PM
meeeep
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:33 PM
hello
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:33 PM
heeeeeeeello
2/1/10 1:33 PM
whatcah doin
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:33 PM
designing a study planner for this lady
2/1/10 1:33 PM
im almost finished
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:34 PM
can i see
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:34 PM
im using the ladys original template and just adding some stuff in
2/1/10 1:34 PM
but yes ill send it to you when im done
2/1/10 1:34 PM
^^
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:34 PM
oh cool
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:34 PM
whatcha up to?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:37 PM
tryin to finish designing our crew shirts so i can send them in to make today hopefully
2/1/10 1:37 PM
fuck classes start tmrw
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:37 PM
thatll be fun!!
2/1/10 1:38 PM
class yay!
2/1/10 1:38 PM
ha ha ha
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:38 PM
yea i guess
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:38 PM
guess who finished with classes! ?
2/1/10 1:38 PM
ha ha me!!!
2/1/10 1:38 PM
^^
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:38 PM
but then right after i have to head to the pitbull concert
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:38 PM
love you
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:38 PM
of course they are on the same day
2/1/10 1:38 PM
i love you more
2/1/10 1:38 PM
ha!
2/1/10 1:38 PM
i win
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:39 PM
Whats beethovens favorite fruit?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:39 PM
....don know
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:39 PM
Ba na na naaaaaaaaaa!
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:40 PM
hah
2/1/10 1:40 PM
thats horribel
2/1/10 1:40 PM
but funny
2/1/10 1:40 PM
ur crazy
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:40 PM
whats the pitbul concert?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:41 PM
what u mean
2/1/10 1:41 PM
who is pitbull?
2/1/10 1:41 PM
some shitty rapper who thinks hes a rapper
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:42 PM
i think i remember seeing pics of him..somewhere
2/1/10 1:42 PM
you hate most music anyway
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:43 PM
i hate commercial music
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Jennifer Newberry posted file Study Planner Guide.docx to members of this chat
2/1/10 1:45 PM
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:45 PM
its really simple
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:45 PM
the only way
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:48 PM
ur sis wants me to pledge her for laps or something
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:49 PM
laps?
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:49 PM
shes running i guess
2/1/10 1:49 PM
i forgot what it is for
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:50 PM
did u add the quotes?
2/1/10 1:50 PM
oh shit
2/1/10 1:50 PM
toy bowl i think right?
2/1/10 1:50 PM
i like the purple block
2/1/10 1:50 PM
adds flavor to it
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:53 PM
that was her psalm or whatever
2/1/10 1:54 PM
but i want her to give me her 12 favorite ones
2/1/10 1:54 PM
one for each month
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:54 PM
word
2/1/10 1:54 PM
its awesome baby
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Martin Castre sent file "HipHopLogoJPEG.jpg"
2/1/10 1:54 PM
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:54 PM
heres the HIPHOP respeto logo but he says it too complicated
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:57 PM
was that the one you were working on in photoshop?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:57 PM
da
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:57 PM
too complicated for a shirt or what?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:57 PM
im workin on alot of shit but yea
2/1/10 1:57 PM
for the flyer
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:58 PM
why is it too complicated?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:59 PM
cuz its hard to read apparently, even tho i showed it to everyone and they read it just fine
2/1/10 2:00 PM
did u see the pics i put up on fb?
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:01 PM
yep
2/1/10 2:02 PM
i really like that park
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:02 PM
and what y think
2/1/10 2:02 PM
yea it was really cool
2/1/10 2:05 PM
what do u think of my dancin
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:06 PM
You've definitely gotten a lot better
2/1/10 2:06 PM
You are a lot faster too
2/1/10 2:06 PM
I've always loved your dancing tho
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:06 PM
meh
2/1/10 2:07 PM
still very plain and boring to me
2/1/10 2:07 PM
at least when i go down
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:08 PM
then spice it up
2/1/10 2:10 PM
head spins!!!
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:11 PM
nop[e
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:11 PM
awwwwww
2/1/10 2:11 PM
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:11 PM
i dont know how i can spice it up more
2/1/10 2:11 PM
everyones basically in love with me and my style
2/1/10 2:11 PM
i hate it
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:14 PM
why do you hate it?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:15 PM
cuz it makes everyone watch me
2/1/10 2:15 PM
and i dont like that
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:15 PM
but ur soooo goooooodddd!! Thats why they want to watch
2/1/10 2:16 PM
youve had tons of people watch you
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:17 PM
im not good
2/1/10 2:17 PM
u dont understand i always feel like i do the same shit
2/1/10 2:17 PM
i need more moves and creativity
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:18 PM
the only way to do that is to learn more moves deary
2/1/10 2:18 PM
and use them
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:21 PM
takes awhile!!
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:23 PM
no it doesnt crazy
2/1/10 2:23 PM
just do it!
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:24 PM
yes
2/1/10 2:24 PM
new video up
2/1/10 2:24 PM
in fb
2/1/10 2:24 PM
next
2/1/10 2:24 PM
man it takes like an hr for a min vid
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:30 PM
yes it does...thats why i stopped
2/1/10 2:30 PM
although i would have uploaded the fountains...
2/1/10 2:30 PM
-.-
2/1/10 2:30 PM
ha ha
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:31 PM
yea me too
2/1/10 2:37 PM
cpk tonight
2/1/10 2:37 PM
?
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:41 PM
nope
2/1/10 2:41 PM
completely off tonight
2/1/10 2:41 PM
i think im gonna hang out with christy and trent
2/1/10 2:41 PM
and maybe unpack some stuff at my house
2/1/10 2:41 PM
or just sleep
2/1/10 2:41 PM
and continue my research from yesterday
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:42 PM
sounds like a plan haha
2/1/10 2:42 PM
research?
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:43 PM
yep. my apts and hostels
2/1/10 2:43 PM
or other options
2/1/10 2:44 PM
ive already heard back from the two apts i emailed
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:44 PM
and
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:47 PM
what?
2/1/10 2:47 PM
ill email you the pics...
2/1/10 2:47 PM
i forgot to do that
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:49 PM
ok got em
2/1/10 2:49 PM
new vid up too
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:49 PM
ill check it out when i finish this order
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:52 PM
man thats a nice place
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:53 PM
only 300 for the whole month
2/1/10 2:53 PM
im excited!
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:53 PM
wow not bad at all
2/1/10 2:54 PM
take it
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:54 PM
i have to figure out when im coming first
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:55 PM
going where
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:56 PM
have you read my message?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:57 PM
not all i didnt have time
2/1/10 2:57 PM
baby idont think u should come
2/1/10 2:57 PM
i need to be here and i need to be alone right now cuz its important to me
2/1/10 2:58 PM
i love you so much and i miss you but i need to take this chance alone
2/1/10 2:59 PM
i had a crazy long talk with polo and he basically said we need to see if u can come in june or maybe may, but if i fuck it up like i did last time, hes sending me home, end of deal
2/1/10 2:59 PM
i cant risk it
2/1/10 2:59 PM
i hate telling you this
2/1/10 3:00 PM
but this is something i need to do alone, and if ur here my head and my heart will be with u, not in my music or art
2/1/10 3:01 PM
even if u come and dont see me, ill go fuckin crazy since ur like 4 miles away and i know u are, and ill lose my focus
2/1/10 3:02 PM
i understand if u want to leave me or tell me to fuck off, but i need this and i know u love me enough to realize that i need to do this alone
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:06 PM
Please just tell me if you want me to leave you...that would make it much easier than you just beating around the bush
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:06 PM
im not beating anything
2/1/10 3:06 PM
I LOVE YOU
2/1/10 3:06 PM
not peru or fam will change that
2/1/10 3:06 PM
neither polo or my fam or anyone made this decision for me
2/1/10 3:07 PM
i made this decision
2/1/10 3:07 PM
but ur my partner, we need to do things thatll help each other. if you needed space and time to fix ur shit and i bought a ticket to see you, i wouldnt come if you asked me too
2/1/10 3:07 PM
to
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:09 PM
I won't come see you thats definite.
2/1/10 3:09 PM
But that doesn't mean I won't be coming to peru
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:10 PM
please dont
2/1/10 3:10 PM
at least change it to somewhere else
2/1/10 3:10 PM
dont do this to me
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:11 PM
I wouldn't tell you if I'm there.
2/1/10 3:11 PM
I'm not doing it to you.
2/1/10 3:11 PM
What happens if I change it to may and then you do this again
2/1/10 3:12 PM
youd want me to change it or just not come...
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:12 PM
id rather u change ur destination to somewhere better, to do ur soulsearching
2/1/10 3:13 PM
ill know ull come and i wont focus
2/1/10 3:13 PM
i would know ur coming and that would be worse
2/1/10 3:13 PM
please dont come here
2/1/10 3:13 PM
go somewhere fun, like hawaii or europe or australia
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:15 PM
you're going to be gone for an indefinite amount of time and I'm not allowed to see you?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:16 PM
not now, no
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:16 PM
so when? next year? the year after?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:17 PM
like i said, if u dont go to japan or can get a quick break, sometime after august
2/1/10 3:17 PM
its best if i only see you for like a weekend
2/1/10 3:18 PM
and if u come after aug, we can go to machu picchu
2/1/10 3:18 PM
and basically be alone for a couple days
2/1/10 3:18 PM
but i cant do it now
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:20 PM
First I would not just come for a weekend.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:20 PM
i wish i didnt have to break ur heart
2/1/10 3:20 PM
im so sorry baby
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:20 PM
you don't.
2/1/10 3:20 PM
It's all your choice and well...you're making it.
2/1/10 3:20 PM
so thanks.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:21 PM
i am sorry, but i need this time
2/1/10 3:25 PM
are u gna break up with me
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:25 PM
why?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:26 PM
cuz ur obviously mad i cant have u here, and im not strong enough to be able to see u right now
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:29 PM
I'm not really mad.
2/1/10 3:29 PM
Just sad.
2/1/10 3:29 PM
Sad that you actually want to do this.
2/1/10 3:29 PM
That you don't want to make things work
2/1/10 3:30 PM
Sad that you don't want to work through life together but alone
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:31 PM
im making this work by being a stronger man, by being a man
2/1/10 3:31 PM
so we can be together
2/1/10 3:31 PM
lima is my chance to be the man i need to be
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:32 PM
You don't need a place to make that happen, You make that happen.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:32 PM
i am making it happen
2/1/10 3:33 PM
i came here
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:33 PM
I'll support whatever it is that you're doing.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:33 PM
thank you baby
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:33 PM
I don't know that I will be personally involved though.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:33 PM
thats all i need from u
2/1/10 3:33 PM
meaning
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:33 PM
Meaning you might have to settle for a friendship
2/1/10 3:36 PM
With the situation the way it is I will prolly need to talk to you everyday...that is my only connection to you and well I guess with the track record, especially recently I'm not sure that I will be able to fulfill that.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:36 PM
why is that
2/1/10 3:36 PM
even if i had 3 concerts in 2 weeks?
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:36 PM
It's about making the effort no matter what
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:36 PM
and i have one tmrw and friday>
2/1/10 3:37 PM
i can make the effort
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:37 PM
The problem is, I don't want to be the burden. I don't want to be the chore that doesn't want to get done but has to
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:38 PM
ur not a chore, ur not a burden
2/1/10 3:39 PM
i just need this time alone right now
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:41 PM
I guess I just don't understand why.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:44 PM
the why is i need this time that polo willingly gave up to help me and mentor me in fixing my shit, and with music and everything else
2/1/10 3:44 PM
i cant focus on that if ur here, if i see u or no
2/1/10 3:44 PM
not yet
2/1/10 3:45 PM
once im better ill come back to u and ull see a better man, one u can rely on for anything and we'll both be grateful that we made this sacrifice so we could be happy together in the long run
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:51 PM
or you will just meet someone that you can spend time with and stay there
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:52 PM
no
2/1/10 3:52 PM
i dont want anyone else
2/1/10 3:52 PM
u are my chompers
2/1/10 3:52 PM
for life
2/1/10 3:52 PM
u signed a contract, basically ur a lifer now
2/1/10 3:52 PM
sucks to be you!
2/1/10 3:52 PM
im happy
2/1/10 3:53 PM
well, not right now, but im happy i was lucky enough to find u and actually fall in love with you
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:58 PM
You don't actually know how you will feel later
2/1/10 3:59 PM
its all up to chance
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:59 PM
i made a promise to u i intend to keep til im 6 feet under
2/1/10 3:59 PM
so no
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:00 PM
Well I don't want you to keep it for the sake of keeping a promise
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:02 PM
its not like that
2/1/10 4:02 PM
its a" i want u in my life"
2/1/10 4:02 PM
thats it
2/1/10 4:02 PM
its just that simple
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:05 PM
except you don't. That would be the whole being alone thing.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:05 PM
its just for right now
2/1/10 4:06 PM
it would the the same situation if i stayed and u went to japan
2/1/10 4:06 PM
if u needed ur space to focus on ur work i wouldnt come
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:07 PM
I don't need my space. I know how to balance things out. Or I would just be happy to be able to come home to you.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:08 PM
well i dont
2/1/10 4:08 PM
i dont have that capacity
2/1/10 4:08 PM
im not normai
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:11 PM
You do have the capacity. It's not a matter of being normal or not. Emily and Loretta have some of the same sort of problems you do. So I guess I don't take that as an excuse.
2/1/10 4:11 PM
I just think if you wanted somethine you would do anything to get it.
2/1/10 4:12 PM
So I guess I'm convinced that you don't really want me.
2/1/10 4:12 PM
I understand why you are doing it I gues. Why you want it this way.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:13 PM
yea i fuckin came to lima peru for 2yrs to fix it
2/1/10 4:13 PM
do u understand?
2/1/10 4:13 PM
i still dont think u do
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:15 PM
Yes I do. The way things are going it just doesn't make since to me. I think there are better ways. Its not my family though and its not my life. So I just have to trust you.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:17 PM
im glad u finally see
2/1/10 4:18 PM
i love you chompchomp
2/1/10 4:18 PM
mantrap
2/1/10 4:18 PM
haha
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:19 PM
I'm still not ok with it though.
2/1/10 4:19 PM
Just so you know.
2/1/10 4:20 PM
I'm not a mantrap. You just don't ever make sense.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:21 PM
im not ok with it
2/1/10 4:21 PM
never was
2/1/10 4:21 PM
its a have to do it, not what i want to do
2/1/10 4:21 PM
mantrap!
2/1/10 4:21 PM
haha
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:23 PM
ok well here is what I'm going to do.
2/1/10 4:23 PM
I'll call student universe and see if i can just switch the ticket to australia.
2/1/10 4:24 PM
If I can'tf
2/1/10 4:24 PM
can't*
2/1/10 4:24 PM
Then I'm still coming to Peru.
2/1/10 4:24 PM
I'll change it to May or June
2/1/10 4:24 PM
but I'm sure I'll go to Cuzco and other cities in peru
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:24 PM
ur not getting this
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:24 PM
so i wont be around in lima
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:24 PM
i cant let u come to peri
2/1/10 4:24 PM
u
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:24 PM
peru*
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:25 PM
ill know ull be here that thats alot worse to me if you were here, since ill be focused on u
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:25 PM
I'll be in other cities
2/1/10 4:25 PM
That's only if I can't change it
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:25 PM
it doesnt matter, ull be in my countries
2/1/10 4:25 PM
y
2/1/10 4:25 PM
u can
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:25 PM
I think I should be able to change it though
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:25 PM
u can change any ticket
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:26 PM
One thing though. Why is it you're willing to risk our relationship?
2/1/10 4:27 PM
I guess though even if we don't work out you will be better for your next girl
2/1/10 4:27 PM
Thats always a good thing
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:27 PM
there wont be a next girl
2/1/10 4:28 PM
im risking the relationship cuz my health is importnat
2/1/10 4:28 PM
ant
2/1/10 4:29 PM
to me, it seems ur letting selfishness come in, instead of realzing u can help me in this decision by not coming right now
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:30 PM
it wouldn't be right now
2/1/10 4:30 PM
it would be in 4 months
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:33 PM
i cant do 4 months
2/1/10 4:34 PM
i cant let u come until maybe after aug
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:40 PM
Of course I'm being selfish, and it scares me that you're being selfish in the opposite direction from me. Relationships are purely selfish things. I'm only with you because I want to be with you, in fact, I am so selfish that I want to be with you and be happy with you for the rest of my life. That you're willing to be away from me for 7 months, or even 2 months, when we are fully capable of at least seeing each other when we can, scares me alot! Is this how its always going to be? If you can't self-progress and be in a REAL relationship at the same time, then maybe you ought to be alone right now.. You obviously don't want me there anytime soon "maybe you'll let me come after august", and you're barely able to keep up any effort in this long distance relationship.... What do you want from me? You want me to be quietly thinking about you a continent away from you, and to send you my love when I can or when you need it? I need more than that! I need alot more than that! I want to be in a real realationship where I get to see you and spend time with you.. even if it's just when we can manage it, and I want those things with you!
2/1/10 4:41 PM
what kind of relationship do you want to be in right now? 'cus it seems like you dont want to be in one at all
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:42 PM
i want to be in a relationship with u
2/1/10 4:43 PM
but i cant give you what u said just now. i cant give u that right now
2/1/10 4:43 PM
so make ur decision
2/1/10 4:52 PM
still there?
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:55 PM
yes
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:55 PM
whats wrong
2/1/10 4:55 PM
why arent u responding
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:56 PM
im thinking.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:57 PM
about
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:58 PM
that last paragraph
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:00 PM
what are ur thoughts
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:01 PM
you answer first. What are your thoughts?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:01 PM
i gave u my thoughts
2/1/10 5:02 PM
my thoughts are, i wish i was dead
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:02 PM
dead...thats a bit over the top. You really can't progress that way.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:03 PM
well i want to be dead now that ive told u all this
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:07 PM
hmmm.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:07 PM
hmmmm
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:10 PM
damn!
2/1/10 5:10 PM
the list of interviews is up
2/1/10 5:10 PM
but i dont have my id number right now
2/1/10 5:10 PM
i dont know.....bah!
2/1/10 5:10 PM
I wanna know if i made it ><
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:10 PM
to the interview?
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:10 PM
yes
2/1/10 5:14 PM
you reap what you sow thats all I have to say
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:14 PM
when will u get ur code
2/1/10 5:14 PM
.....
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:14 PM
prolly when i get home
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:14 PM
ok
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:14 PM
ill be searching
2/1/10 5:16 PM
ok well im off now.
2/1/10 5:16 PM
I have to go
2/1/10 5:16 PM
errands to run. people to see
2/1/10 5:17 PM
medicine to reluctantly take
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:17 PM
ur taking my meds??
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:17 PM
I gave most of it back to your parents...
2/1/10 5:17 PM
i have your liquid tylenol cold and sinus
2/1/10 5:17 PM
meh
2/1/10 5:17 PM
gross. not as bad as nyquil though
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:18 PM
oh i thought u were taking my ADD meds
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:19 PM
I don't think ill ever take ADD meds
2/1/10 5:19 PM
I don't have ADD
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:19 PM
meh
2/1/10 5:19 PM
crazy pills are good for u
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:20 PM
for you maybe.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:21 PM
nope for everyone!
2/1/10 5:24 PM
ok baby, well ill talk to u later then
2/1/10 5:24 PM
love you
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:26 PM
communicating online and being able to talk and see each other through webcams is a way to spend time with each other.
2/1/10 5:26 PM
we were being fairly good at that.
2/1/10 5:26 PM
well you were never consistent with it and I didn't push it .
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:26 PM
till my webcam decided to be gay
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:26 PM
true.
2/1/10 5:26 PM
that can easily be fixed by getting a new one.
2/1/10 5:27 PM
If you ever do decide to call me or get that phone card you were talking about.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:27 PM
with money
2/1/10 5:27 PM
i can call u
2/1/10 5:27 PM
just couldnt lately with all the shit
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:27 PM
hmmm
2/1/10 5:28 PM
Then I am fine for now. As long as communication is kept up I think I'll be ok.
2/1/10 5:28 PM
and we'll be ok.
2/1/10 5:29 PM
because I don't particularly want you to die
2/1/10 5:29 PM
It would make breaking up easy though.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:29 PM
aw
2/1/10 5:29 PM
phht
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:29 PM
^^
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:29 PM
u would like that
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:29 PM
Then id get to keep the monitor! ha!
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:30 PM
for now
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:31 PM
But Give it about a month or so and I'm sure I'll bug you about seeing you again...just so you know
2/1/10 5:31 PM
I might even wait 2 months just to give me better leverage
2/1/10 5:32 PM
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:32 PM
we'll see
2/1/10 5:32 PM
meh
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:33 PM
I'm just giving you forewarning.
2/1/10 5:33 PM
just in case.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:33 PM
meh!
2/1/10 5:33 PM
dont do it!!
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:33 PM
don't do what?
2/1/10 5:33 PM
try and convince you seeing me is a good thing?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:34 PM
bug me about it
2/1/10 5:34 PM
i know its a good thing
2/1/10 5:34 PM
just cant do it
2/1/10 5:34 PM
so there!!
2/1/10 5:34 PM
end of story
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:34 PM
the only time you can't do it is if your dead. Other than that you choose not to.
2/1/10 5:34 PM
So don't say can't.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:34 PM
i chose not to
2/1/10 5:35 PM
feel better?
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:35 PM
I know. You hate me. Thats ok for now.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:35 PM
no hate
2/1/10 5:35 PM
all love!
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:35 PM
jenn-hater
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:35 PM
i hate other people
2/1/10 5:35 PM
nope
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:35 PM
i feel some deja vu...
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:37 PM
...
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:37 PM
jenn-hater
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:38 PM
nope!!
2/1/10 5:38 PM
ha! u lose
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:38 PM
I'm just letting you think that.
2/1/10 5:38 PM
I never lose. ^^
2/1/10 5:39 PM
Okies. We are leaving now.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:39 PM
mmhhm
2/1/10 5:39 PM
ok love love
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:39 PM
love you.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:39 PM
love yu
2/1/10 5:39 PM
byes
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:39 PM
bye!
2/1/10 6:58 PM
hi
Martin Castre
2/1/10 6:59 PM
hey
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 7:01 PM
I didn't make it to the interview stage. no japan for me.
2/1/10 7:01 PM
im gonna go now.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 7:01 PM
oh man
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 7:01 PM
ill talk to you sometime later.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 7:01 PM
im sorry baby
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 7:01 PM
love you. bye
Martin Castre
2/1/10 7:01 PM
i love yoiu
2/1/10 1:32 PM
meeeep
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:33 PM
hello
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:33 PM
heeeeeeeello
2/1/10 1:33 PM
whatcah doin
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:33 PM
designing a study planner for this lady
2/1/10 1:33 PM
im almost finished
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:34 PM
can i see
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:34 PM
im using the ladys original template and just adding some stuff in
2/1/10 1:34 PM
but yes ill send it to you when im done
2/1/10 1:34 PM
^^
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:34 PM
oh cool
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:34 PM
whatcha up to?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:37 PM
tryin to finish designing our crew shirts so i can send them in to make today hopefully
2/1/10 1:37 PM
fuck classes start tmrw
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:37 PM
thatll be fun!!
2/1/10 1:38 PM
class yay!
2/1/10 1:38 PM
ha ha ha
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:38 PM
yea i guess
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:38 PM
guess who finished with classes! ?
2/1/10 1:38 PM
ha ha me!!!
2/1/10 1:38 PM
^^
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:38 PM
but then right after i have to head to the pitbull concert
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:38 PM
love you
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:38 PM
of course they are on the same day
2/1/10 1:38 PM
i love you more
2/1/10 1:38 PM
ha!
2/1/10 1:38 PM
i win
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:39 PM
Whats beethovens favorite fruit?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:39 PM
....don know
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:39 PM
Ba na na naaaaaaaaaa!
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:40 PM
hah
2/1/10 1:40 PM
thats horribel
2/1/10 1:40 PM
but funny
2/1/10 1:40 PM
ur crazy
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:40 PM
whats the pitbul concert?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:41 PM
what u mean
2/1/10 1:41 PM
who is pitbull?
2/1/10 1:41 PM
some shitty rapper who thinks hes a rapper
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:42 PM
i think i remember seeing pics of him..somewhere
2/1/10 1:42 PM
you hate most music anyway
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:43 PM
i hate commercial music
❦
Jennifer Newberry posted file Study Planner Guide.docx to members of this chat
2/1/10 1:45 PM
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:45 PM
its really simple
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:45 PM
the only way
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:48 PM
ur sis wants me to pledge her for laps or something
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:49 PM
laps?
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:49 PM
shes running i guess
2/1/10 1:49 PM
i forgot what it is for
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:50 PM
did u add the quotes?
2/1/10 1:50 PM
oh shit
2/1/10 1:50 PM
toy bowl i think right?
2/1/10 1:50 PM
i like the purple block
2/1/10 1:50 PM
adds flavor to it
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:53 PM
that was her psalm or whatever
2/1/10 1:54 PM
but i want her to give me her 12 favorite ones
2/1/10 1:54 PM
one for each month
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:54 PM
word
2/1/10 1:54 PM
its awesome baby
❦
Martin Castre sent file "HipHopLogoJPEG.jpg"
2/1/10 1:54 PM
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:54 PM
heres the HIPHOP respeto logo but he says it too complicated
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:57 PM
was that the one you were working on in photoshop?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:57 PM
da
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:57 PM
too complicated for a shirt or what?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:57 PM
im workin on alot of shit but yea
2/1/10 1:57 PM
for the flyer
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 1:58 PM
why is it too complicated?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 1:59 PM
cuz its hard to read apparently, even tho i showed it to everyone and they read it just fine
2/1/10 2:00 PM
did u see the pics i put up on fb?
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:01 PM
yep
2/1/10 2:02 PM
i really like that park
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:02 PM
and what y think
2/1/10 2:02 PM
yea it was really cool
2/1/10 2:05 PM
what do u think of my dancin
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:06 PM
You've definitely gotten a lot better
2/1/10 2:06 PM
You are a lot faster too
2/1/10 2:06 PM
I've always loved your dancing tho
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:06 PM
meh
2/1/10 2:07 PM
still very plain and boring to me
2/1/10 2:07 PM
at least when i go down
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:08 PM
then spice it up
2/1/10 2:10 PM
head spins!!!
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:11 PM
nop[e
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:11 PM
awwwwww
2/1/10 2:11 PM
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:11 PM
i dont know how i can spice it up more
2/1/10 2:11 PM
everyones basically in love with me and my style
2/1/10 2:11 PM
i hate it
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:14 PM
why do you hate it?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:15 PM
cuz it makes everyone watch me
2/1/10 2:15 PM
and i dont like that
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:15 PM
but ur soooo goooooodddd!! Thats why they want to watch
2/1/10 2:16 PM
youve had tons of people watch you
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:17 PM
im not good
2/1/10 2:17 PM
u dont understand i always feel like i do the same shit
2/1/10 2:17 PM
i need more moves and creativity
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:18 PM
the only way to do that is to learn more moves deary
2/1/10 2:18 PM
and use them
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:21 PM
takes awhile!!
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:23 PM
no it doesnt crazy
2/1/10 2:23 PM
just do it!
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:24 PM
yes
2/1/10 2:24 PM
new video up
2/1/10 2:24 PM
in fb
2/1/10 2:24 PM
next
2/1/10 2:24 PM
man it takes like an hr for a min vid
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:30 PM
yes it does...thats why i stopped
2/1/10 2:30 PM
although i would have uploaded the fountains...
2/1/10 2:30 PM
-.-
2/1/10 2:30 PM
ha ha
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:31 PM
yea me too
2/1/10 2:37 PM
cpk tonight
2/1/10 2:37 PM
?
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:41 PM
nope
2/1/10 2:41 PM
completely off tonight
2/1/10 2:41 PM
i think im gonna hang out with christy and trent
2/1/10 2:41 PM
and maybe unpack some stuff at my house
2/1/10 2:41 PM
or just sleep
2/1/10 2:41 PM
and continue my research from yesterday
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:42 PM
sounds like a plan haha
2/1/10 2:42 PM
research?
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:43 PM
yep. my apts and hostels
2/1/10 2:43 PM
or other options
2/1/10 2:44 PM
ive already heard back from the two apts i emailed
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:44 PM
and
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:47 PM
what?
2/1/10 2:47 PM
ill email you the pics...
2/1/10 2:47 PM
i forgot to do that
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:49 PM
ok got em
2/1/10 2:49 PM
new vid up too
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:49 PM
ill check it out when i finish this order
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:52 PM
man thats a nice place
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:53 PM
only 300 for the whole month
2/1/10 2:53 PM
im excited!
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:53 PM
wow not bad at all
2/1/10 2:54 PM
take it
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:54 PM
i have to figure out when im coming first
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:55 PM
going where
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 2:56 PM
have you read my message?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 2:57 PM
not all i didnt have time
2/1/10 2:57 PM
baby idont think u should come
2/1/10 2:57 PM
i need to be here and i need to be alone right now cuz its important to me
2/1/10 2:58 PM
i love you so much and i miss you but i need to take this chance alone
2/1/10 2:59 PM
i had a crazy long talk with polo and he basically said we need to see if u can come in june or maybe may, but if i fuck it up like i did last time, hes sending me home, end of deal
2/1/10 2:59 PM
i cant risk it
2/1/10 2:59 PM
i hate telling you this
2/1/10 3:00 PM
but this is something i need to do alone, and if ur here my head and my heart will be with u, not in my music or art
2/1/10 3:01 PM
even if u come and dont see me, ill go fuckin crazy since ur like 4 miles away and i know u are, and ill lose my focus
2/1/10 3:02 PM
i understand if u want to leave me or tell me to fuck off, but i need this and i know u love me enough to realize that i need to do this alone
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:06 PM
Please just tell me if you want me to leave you...that would make it much easier than you just beating around the bush
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:06 PM
im not beating anything
2/1/10 3:06 PM
I LOVE YOU
2/1/10 3:06 PM
not peru or fam will change that
2/1/10 3:06 PM
neither polo or my fam or anyone made this decision for me
2/1/10 3:07 PM
i made this decision
2/1/10 3:07 PM
but ur my partner, we need to do things thatll help each other. if you needed space and time to fix ur shit and i bought a ticket to see you, i wouldnt come if you asked me too
2/1/10 3:07 PM
to
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:09 PM
I won't come see you thats definite.
2/1/10 3:09 PM
But that doesn't mean I won't be coming to peru
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:10 PM
please dont
2/1/10 3:10 PM
at least change it to somewhere else
2/1/10 3:10 PM
dont do this to me
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:11 PM
I wouldn't tell you if I'm there.
2/1/10 3:11 PM
I'm not doing it to you.
2/1/10 3:11 PM
What happens if I change it to may and then you do this again
2/1/10 3:12 PM
youd want me to change it or just not come...
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:12 PM
id rather u change ur destination to somewhere better, to do ur soulsearching
2/1/10 3:13 PM
ill know ull come and i wont focus
2/1/10 3:13 PM
i would know ur coming and that would be worse
2/1/10 3:13 PM
please dont come here
2/1/10 3:13 PM
go somewhere fun, like hawaii or europe or australia
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:15 PM
you're going to be gone for an indefinite amount of time and I'm not allowed to see you?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:16 PM
not now, no
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:16 PM
so when? next year? the year after?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:17 PM
like i said, if u dont go to japan or can get a quick break, sometime after august
2/1/10 3:17 PM
its best if i only see you for like a weekend
2/1/10 3:18 PM
and if u come after aug, we can go to machu picchu
2/1/10 3:18 PM
and basically be alone for a couple days
2/1/10 3:18 PM
but i cant do it now
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:20 PM
First I would not just come for a weekend.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:20 PM
i wish i didnt have to break ur heart
2/1/10 3:20 PM
im so sorry baby
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:20 PM
you don't.
2/1/10 3:20 PM
It's all your choice and well...you're making it.
2/1/10 3:20 PM
so thanks.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:21 PM
i am sorry, but i need this time
2/1/10 3:25 PM
are u gna break up with me
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:25 PM
why?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:26 PM
cuz ur obviously mad i cant have u here, and im not strong enough to be able to see u right now
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:29 PM
I'm not really mad.
2/1/10 3:29 PM
Just sad.
2/1/10 3:29 PM
Sad that you actually want to do this.
2/1/10 3:29 PM
That you don't want to make things work
2/1/10 3:30 PM
Sad that you don't want to work through life together but alone
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:31 PM
im making this work by being a stronger man, by being a man
2/1/10 3:31 PM
so we can be together
2/1/10 3:31 PM
lima is my chance to be the man i need to be
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:32 PM
You don't need a place to make that happen, You make that happen.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:32 PM
i am making it happen
2/1/10 3:33 PM
i came here
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:33 PM
I'll support whatever it is that you're doing.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:33 PM
thank you baby
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:33 PM
I don't know that I will be personally involved though.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:33 PM
thats all i need from u
2/1/10 3:33 PM
meaning
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:33 PM
Meaning you might have to settle for a friendship
2/1/10 3:36 PM
With the situation the way it is I will prolly need to talk to you everyday...that is my only connection to you and well I guess with the track record, especially recently I'm not sure that I will be able to fulfill that.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:36 PM
why is that
2/1/10 3:36 PM
even if i had 3 concerts in 2 weeks?
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:36 PM
It's about making the effort no matter what
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:36 PM
and i have one tmrw and friday>
2/1/10 3:37 PM
i can make the effort
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:37 PM
The problem is, I don't want to be the burden. I don't want to be the chore that doesn't want to get done but has to
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:38 PM
ur not a chore, ur not a burden
2/1/10 3:39 PM
i just need this time alone right now
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:41 PM
I guess I just don't understand why.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:44 PM
the why is i need this time that polo willingly gave up to help me and mentor me in fixing my shit, and with music and everything else
2/1/10 3:44 PM
i cant focus on that if ur here, if i see u or no
2/1/10 3:44 PM
not yet
2/1/10 3:45 PM
once im better ill come back to u and ull see a better man, one u can rely on for anything and we'll both be grateful that we made this sacrifice so we could be happy together in the long run
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:51 PM
or you will just meet someone that you can spend time with and stay there
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:52 PM
no
2/1/10 3:52 PM
i dont want anyone else
2/1/10 3:52 PM
u are my chompers
2/1/10 3:52 PM
for life
2/1/10 3:52 PM
u signed a contract, basically ur a lifer now
2/1/10 3:52 PM
sucks to be you!
2/1/10 3:52 PM
im happy
2/1/10 3:53 PM
well, not right now, but im happy i was lucky enough to find u and actually fall in love with you
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 3:58 PM
You don't actually know how you will feel later
2/1/10 3:59 PM
its all up to chance
Martin Castre
2/1/10 3:59 PM
i made a promise to u i intend to keep til im 6 feet under
2/1/10 3:59 PM
so no
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:00 PM
Well I don't want you to keep it for the sake of keeping a promise
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:02 PM
its not like that
2/1/10 4:02 PM
its a" i want u in my life"
2/1/10 4:02 PM
thats it
2/1/10 4:02 PM
its just that simple
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:05 PM
except you don't. That would be the whole being alone thing.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:05 PM
its just for right now
2/1/10 4:06 PM
it would the the same situation if i stayed and u went to japan
2/1/10 4:06 PM
if u needed ur space to focus on ur work i wouldnt come
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:07 PM
I don't need my space. I know how to balance things out. Or I would just be happy to be able to come home to you.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:08 PM
well i dont
2/1/10 4:08 PM
i dont have that capacity
2/1/10 4:08 PM
im not normai
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:11 PM
You do have the capacity. It's not a matter of being normal or not. Emily and Loretta have some of the same sort of problems you do. So I guess I don't take that as an excuse.
2/1/10 4:11 PM
I just think if you wanted somethine you would do anything to get it.
2/1/10 4:12 PM
So I guess I'm convinced that you don't really want me.
2/1/10 4:12 PM
I understand why you are doing it I gues. Why you want it this way.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:13 PM
yea i fuckin came to lima peru for 2yrs to fix it
2/1/10 4:13 PM
do u understand?
2/1/10 4:13 PM
i still dont think u do
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:15 PM
Yes I do. The way things are going it just doesn't make since to me. I think there are better ways. Its not my family though and its not my life. So I just have to trust you.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:17 PM
im glad u finally see
2/1/10 4:18 PM
i love you chompchomp
2/1/10 4:18 PM
mantrap
2/1/10 4:18 PM
haha
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:19 PM
I'm still not ok with it though.
2/1/10 4:19 PM
Just so you know.
2/1/10 4:20 PM
I'm not a mantrap. You just don't ever make sense.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:21 PM
im not ok with it
2/1/10 4:21 PM
never was
2/1/10 4:21 PM
its a have to do it, not what i want to do
2/1/10 4:21 PM
mantrap!
2/1/10 4:21 PM
haha
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:23 PM
ok well here is what I'm going to do.
2/1/10 4:23 PM
I'll call student universe and see if i can just switch the ticket to australia.
2/1/10 4:24 PM
If I can'tf
2/1/10 4:24 PM
can't*
2/1/10 4:24 PM
Then I'm still coming to Peru.
2/1/10 4:24 PM
I'll change it to May or June
2/1/10 4:24 PM
but I'm sure I'll go to Cuzco and other cities in peru
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:24 PM
ur not getting this
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:24 PM
so i wont be around in lima
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:24 PM
i cant let u come to peri
2/1/10 4:24 PM
u
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:24 PM
peru*
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:25 PM
ill know ull be here that thats alot worse to me if you were here, since ill be focused on u
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:25 PM
I'll be in other cities
2/1/10 4:25 PM
That's only if I can't change it
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:25 PM
it doesnt matter, ull be in my countries
2/1/10 4:25 PM
y
2/1/10 4:25 PM
u can
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:25 PM
I think I should be able to change it though
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:25 PM
u can change any ticket
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:26 PM
One thing though. Why is it you're willing to risk our relationship?
2/1/10 4:27 PM
I guess though even if we don't work out you will be better for your next girl
2/1/10 4:27 PM
Thats always a good thing
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:27 PM
there wont be a next girl
2/1/10 4:28 PM
im risking the relationship cuz my health is importnat
2/1/10 4:28 PM
ant
2/1/10 4:29 PM
to me, it seems ur letting selfishness come in, instead of realzing u can help me in this decision by not coming right now
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:30 PM
it wouldn't be right now
2/1/10 4:30 PM
it would be in 4 months
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:33 PM
i cant do 4 months
2/1/10 4:34 PM
i cant let u come until maybe after aug
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:40 PM
Of course I'm being selfish, and it scares me that you're being selfish in the opposite direction from me. Relationships are purely selfish things. I'm only with you because I want to be with you, in fact, I am so selfish that I want to be with you and be happy with you for the rest of my life. That you're willing to be away from me for 7 months, or even 2 months, when we are fully capable of at least seeing each other when we can, scares me alot! Is this how its always going to be? If you can't self-progress and be in a REAL relationship at the same time, then maybe you ought to be alone right now.. You obviously don't want me there anytime soon "maybe you'll let me come after august", and you're barely able to keep up any effort in this long distance relationship.... What do you want from me? You want me to be quietly thinking about you a continent away from you, and to send you my love when I can or when you need it? I need more than that! I need alot more than that! I want to be in a real realationship where I get to see you and spend time with you.. even if it's just when we can manage it, and I want those things with you!
2/1/10 4:41 PM
what kind of relationship do you want to be in right now? 'cus it seems like you dont want to be in one at all
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:42 PM
i want to be in a relationship with u
2/1/10 4:43 PM
but i cant give you what u said just now. i cant give u that right now
2/1/10 4:43 PM
so make ur decision
2/1/10 4:52 PM
still there?
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:55 PM
yes
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:55 PM
whats wrong
2/1/10 4:55 PM
why arent u responding
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:56 PM
im thinking.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 4:57 PM
about
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 4:58 PM
that last paragraph
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:00 PM
what are ur thoughts
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:01 PM
you answer first. What are your thoughts?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:01 PM
i gave u my thoughts
2/1/10 5:02 PM
my thoughts are, i wish i was dead
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:02 PM
dead...thats a bit over the top. You really can't progress that way.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:03 PM
well i want to be dead now that ive told u all this
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:07 PM
hmmm.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:07 PM
hmmmm
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:10 PM
damn!
2/1/10 5:10 PM
the list of interviews is up
2/1/10 5:10 PM
but i dont have my id number right now
2/1/10 5:10 PM
i dont know.....bah!
2/1/10 5:10 PM
I wanna know if i made it ><
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:10 PM
to the interview?
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:10 PM
yes
2/1/10 5:14 PM
you reap what you sow thats all I have to say
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:14 PM
when will u get ur code
2/1/10 5:14 PM
.....
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:14 PM
prolly when i get home
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:14 PM
ok
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:14 PM
ill be searching
2/1/10 5:16 PM
ok well im off now.
2/1/10 5:16 PM
I have to go
2/1/10 5:16 PM
errands to run. people to see
2/1/10 5:17 PM
medicine to reluctantly take
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:17 PM
ur taking my meds??
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:17 PM
I gave most of it back to your parents...
2/1/10 5:17 PM
i have your liquid tylenol cold and sinus
2/1/10 5:17 PM
meh
2/1/10 5:17 PM
gross. not as bad as nyquil though
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:18 PM
oh i thought u were taking my ADD meds
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:19 PM
I don't think ill ever take ADD meds
2/1/10 5:19 PM
I don't have ADD
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:19 PM
meh
2/1/10 5:19 PM
crazy pills are good for u
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:20 PM
for you maybe.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:21 PM
nope for everyone!
2/1/10 5:24 PM
ok baby, well ill talk to u later then
2/1/10 5:24 PM
love you
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:26 PM
communicating online and being able to talk and see each other through webcams is a way to spend time with each other.
2/1/10 5:26 PM
we were being fairly good at that.
2/1/10 5:26 PM
well you were never consistent with it and I didn't push it .
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:26 PM
till my webcam decided to be gay
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:26 PM
true.
2/1/10 5:26 PM
that can easily be fixed by getting a new one.
2/1/10 5:27 PM
If you ever do decide to call me or get that phone card you were talking about.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:27 PM
with money
2/1/10 5:27 PM
i can call u
2/1/10 5:27 PM
just couldnt lately with all the shit
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:27 PM
hmmm
2/1/10 5:28 PM
Then I am fine for now. As long as communication is kept up I think I'll be ok.
2/1/10 5:28 PM
and we'll be ok.
2/1/10 5:29 PM
because I don't particularly want you to die
2/1/10 5:29 PM
It would make breaking up easy though.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:29 PM
aw
2/1/10 5:29 PM
phht
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:29 PM
^^
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:29 PM
u would like that
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:29 PM
Then id get to keep the monitor! ha!
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:30 PM
for now
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:31 PM
But Give it about a month or so and I'm sure I'll bug you about seeing you again...just so you know
2/1/10 5:31 PM
I might even wait 2 months just to give me better leverage
2/1/10 5:32 PM
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:32 PM
we'll see
2/1/10 5:32 PM
meh
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:33 PM
I'm just giving you forewarning.
2/1/10 5:33 PM
just in case.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:33 PM
meh!
2/1/10 5:33 PM
dont do it!!
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:33 PM
don't do what?
2/1/10 5:33 PM
try and convince you seeing me is a good thing?
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:34 PM
bug me about it
2/1/10 5:34 PM
i know its a good thing
2/1/10 5:34 PM
just cant do it
2/1/10 5:34 PM
so there!!
2/1/10 5:34 PM
end of story
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:34 PM
the only time you can't do it is if your dead. Other than that you choose not to.
2/1/10 5:34 PM
So don't say can't.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:34 PM
i chose not to
2/1/10 5:35 PM
feel better?
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:35 PM
I know. You hate me. Thats ok for now.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:35 PM
no hate
2/1/10 5:35 PM
all love!
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:35 PM
jenn-hater
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:35 PM
i hate other people
2/1/10 5:35 PM
nope
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:35 PM
i feel some deja vu...
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:37 PM
...
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:37 PM
jenn-hater
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:38 PM
nope!!
2/1/10 5:38 PM
ha! u lose
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:38 PM
I'm just letting you think that.
2/1/10 5:38 PM
I never lose. ^^
2/1/10 5:39 PM
Okies. We are leaving now.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:39 PM
mmhhm
2/1/10 5:39 PM
ok love love
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:39 PM
love you.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 5:39 PM
love yu
2/1/10 5:39 PM
byes
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 5:39 PM
bye!
2/1/10 6:58 PM
hi
Martin Castre
2/1/10 6:59 PM
hey
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 7:01 PM
I didn't make it to the interview stage. no japan for me.
2/1/10 7:01 PM
im gonna go now.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 7:01 PM
oh man
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 7:01 PM
ill talk to you sometime later.
Martin Castre
2/1/10 7:01 PM
im sorry baby
Jennifer Newberry
2/1/10 7:01 PM
love you. bye
Martin Castre
2/1/10 7:01 PM
i love yoiu