when i come around, must you always put me down?
janice has one more chemo session- thank god... she keeps whining about it at dinner, it's a little irritating. i'm starting to feel the holidays (not in a good way) it's hard seeing her like this and listening to it while i'm thinking of my mom. i want to be more sympathetic, but all i can think of is "at least you didn't die" and i keep remembering when she told me she can't worry about me and my feelings about cancer. first off, i never asked for her to worry. i really don't care if she worries about it- but it was a dickhole thing to say. she's good at that. what else? heather's back yard is being invaded by skunks. stinky little fuckers. i need to wrap presents, do laundry, bake christmas cookies... next week. i'm watching cadence for a couple of hours today. it'll be nice to get out of the house. sonja moved back to san diego. stoked on that, but she's living with her friend vanessa- and i don't think she likes me much. jamie is so cute! she has the best laugh. i love babies. mike got a promotion and a pay raise. i asked him if we could move out yet- he said maybe. it would be so nice if we could. i'm not really counting on it. i don't know where the money goes. he swears we're broke (or close to it) but we don't really spend a lot anymore. he was making so much less at mitchell and we seemed to have a lot more... i don't know... nothing else really. same old shit. i found meghan on myspace. trying to find donna now. i guess she has two daughters? i've been feeling very nostalgic lately. trying desperately to get my childhood back. i'll be 25 in a couple weeks. haha- DON'T WANNA!