May 14, 2010 15:57
i really really want to come out to my friends. i know that before i do that completely, i'll probably need to move out. so i'm looking for a job and trying to get commissions and i think i'll be able to rent out a room at a friend's house, but i'm not sure.
i've been feeling a lot more comfortable with my self image as male, recently. i'm still no where near passing (my haircut failed miserably), but inside i'm able to think in "he"s and "his"s and use my male name for most things.
i read a post on the ftm boards today, about T effects, and how it changed the clitoris and such, and i had ths overwhelming feeling of "yes. that's right. that's what i want." haha.
also, talking about kinks with your bff is sorta weird, but ok.
school,
ftm,
friends